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8月歌單【好事自在Latte】
08/31星期二
14:04:09Run/One Republic
14:06:53無樂不作/范逸臣
14:11:36愛到站了/李千娜
14:15:11淚光閃閃/黃品源
14:19:37Week End/星野 源
14:26:27搖落/兄弟本色
14:32:09Ordinary People/John Legend
14:36:40怪自己太特別/巴奈
14:44:36Waterfalls/TLC
14:49:01給你抱抱/李玖哲
14:53:20受夠/周興哲

15:04:05愛情限時批/伍佰/萬芳
15:07:43Nobody Wants To Be Lonely/Ricky Martin/Christina Agulera
15:11:46猜猜/張語噥/Barry Chan
15:16:24第三人稱/蔡依林
15:21:02流浪狗/李泉/范曉萱
15:25:24Super Shine/EXILE 放浪兄弟
15:34:08Queendom/Red Velvet
15:38:12我要的幸福/孫燕姿
15:41:38彩虹/動力火車
15:48:01Save Me - Don't Break Me/Modern Talking
15:52:50煙火/陳綺貞

16:04:06相思成災/劉德華
16:08:44如果那天/林凡
16:12:04LATATA/(G)I-DLE
16:17:10Someone Over The Rainbow/許哲珮/莫子儀
16:21:05值得被珍惜/周蕙
16:25:40Don't Go Breaking My Heart/Backstreet Boys
16:31:33Always On My Mind/Pet Shop Boys
16:36:32聽見下雨的聲音/魏如昀
16:40:57台北下了雪/徐若瑄
16:48:22笑一個/浩角翔起
16:52:00Cha Cha Cha/Humo feat Josef
16:55:23失戀陣線聯盟/草蜢

08/30星期一
14:04:00Rehab/Amy Winehouse
14:07:55十二生肖/王力宏
14:12:59我還是一個人/黃偉晉
14:17:18我美麗的愛情/許慧欣
14:22:03Love On The Weekend/John Mayer
14:29:35小情歌/倖田來未
14:34:45急不來的，就讓它慢吧/ 蔡佩軒
14:38:02愛一個人好難/蘇永康
14:45:06Where Are We Now/MAMAMOO
14:48:46HAVE A NICE DAY/魏如萱
14:53:39老實情人/鼓鼓 呂思緯

15:04:14批/蘇明淵
15:08:50阿峰今天沒有來/萬芳
15:13:44Whole World Around/Daniel Powter
15:21:06一起去跑步/宇宙人
15:26:07Twenty-three/IU
15:32:52吃定我/吳是閎
15:36:46如果我變成回憶/TANK
15:43:20When They Come For Me/Linkin Park
15:48:10One by one oh We're Gonna Die/Tizzy Bac
15:53:07怎麼了/周興哲

16:03:56今晚我是你的DJ/鄺美雲
16:08:15Superwoman/曹格
16:13:14I'm your dog/平井堅
16:17:59愛的動名片/安心亞
16:21:17Luv Me/AOA
16:24:45媽媽說/周渝民
16:32:05那年夏天寧靜的海/王心凌
16:36:12有一種愛叫等待/邱鋒澤
16:40:34Cherry/Harry Styles
16:46:58大俠艾吃漢堡包/艾成
16:50:48不吃早餐才是一件很嘻哈的事/MC HotDog
16:55:13速食餐/素食搖滾客FAST

08/27星期五
14:04:09早安，晨之美/盧廣仲
14:07:57我的Super Life/錦繡二重唱
14:11:14Beautiful soul/Jesse McCartney
14:16:27其實你並沒那麼孤單/周興哲
14:19:20Young And Beautiful/Lana Del Rey
14:23:10總要/巴奈
14:31:32The Beat Goes On/SUPER JUNIOR-D&E
14:35:43浪費/文慧如
14:40:24我們都有問題/蛋堡/N.CHEN
14:47:31你的宇宙/宇宙人
14:52:27You're Not Sorry/Taylor Swift

15:04:05我愛過/江蕙
15:08:48倒回愛/孫梓菱
15:13:00Can't Stop/CNBLUE
15:18:59兩秒終/周湯豪
15:22:36Your Body/Christina Aguilera
15:30:59寂寞沙洲冷/周傳雄
15:35:30我們沒有愛錯/潘嘉麗
15:41:33Thriller/Michael Jackson
15:49:53The Rose Song/Olivia Rodrigo
15:53:46全部都給你/吳克群

16:04:03訂做一個他/黃韻玲
16:07:30My Dear/Red Velvet
16:11:00BOOGIE/吳建豪
16:17:11等一個人/林芯儀
16:21:18想念你的歌/Saya
16:26:16It Will Rain/Bruno Mars
16:33:11Just A Little Bit/Claudia
16:38:38你怎麼可以安心的睡著/戴佩妮
16:41:21想要膩在一起/曾昱嘉
16:48:24玩家/曹楊/派偉俊
16:51:49SPOTLIGHT/頑童MJ116
16:55:21I'm Ready/Sam Smith

08/26星期四
14:04:08倒數/陳綺貞
14:07:57Time after time/Ronan Keating
14:12:02戀戀/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
14:17:18忘了愛/范逸臣
14:22:11IF YOU/BIGBANG
14:26:29不營業日常/劉若英
14:34:50Picture Perfect/Chris Brown
14:40:10尋人啟事/徐佳瑩
14:44:35演員和歌手/李榮浩/陳坤
14:51:03忘記你/派偉俊/Tyson Yo
14:54:59MUSIC/moumoon

15:04:07什麼時候她/李英宏
15:08:58Love Isn't Easy/ABBA
15:11:43Hands on Me/少女時代-太妍
15:18:30一夜情/張惠妹
15:23:33I Wanna Be That Girl/Leona Lewis
15:27:37壞米仔/楊士弘/屁孩 Rya
15:34:42夏天的午後是鈷藍色/Awesome City
15:38:53我比從前想你了/Bii畢書盡
15:43:29空港/戴愛玲
15:49:06How Would It Be/Lene Marlin
15:54:07蠢蛋/八三夭

16:04:06真心/葉蒨文
16:08:00Eternity/Robbie Williams
16:12:55每月5號/汪蘇瀧
16:18:24Only One/順子
16:23:11怎樣/張三李四/呂薔
16:27:40Find You/Zedd/Matthew
16:35:34How Can I Love You/金俊秀
16:40:57真相大白/卓文萱
16:47:16娛樂無限公司/Ella 陳嘉樺
16:50:50In Your Arms/Backstreet Boys
16:54:28紅粉寶貝/汪佩蓉

08/25星期三
14:04:31愛人錯過/告五人
14:09:14It's Time/Imagine Dragons
14:13:06雙節棍/周杰倫
14:18:06情歌/陳珊妮
14:22:38我不需要/邱振哲
14:27:04謝謝我的愛/NCT DREAM
14:33:25我是你的fan/春艷/薩麥爾
14:37:38海枯石爛/Olivia Ong
14:41:23兩顆星紀念日/大塚 愛
14:48:18Clocks/Coldplay
14:54:27快樂天堂/劉若英

15:04:12繁華攏是夢/琳誼
15:08:01我不難過/孫燕姿
15:12:54Fool's Gold/One Direction
15:18:33Saturday/陳卓
15:21:38留給你的我從未/甜約翰/壞特
15:25:40my kind of girl/Michael Buble
15:34:48Rumors/Lizzo/Cardi B
15:38:47換日線/張智成
15:45:34愛情從告白開始/金範秀
15:49:10我不再怕/梁心頤
15:53:17天真世界的叛徒/理想混蛋

16:03:56短髮/梁詠琪
16:08:26其實都沒有/楊宗緯
16:12:09Everybody knows/John Legend
16:18:52I Love U So/Jinbo
16:22:23ANY SONG/ZICO
16:26:08藏不住/By2/MP 魔幻力量
16:34:03UP!/Shania Twain
16:38:23心如刀割/張學友
16:45:35Yes I do/Supper Moment
16:50:21旅行公路/小男孩樂團
16:53:59Together/MONKEY MAJIK

08/24星期二
14:04:39不上班/李千娜
14:07:56上班族On The Beach/Porno Graffitti
14:12:06今世世界紀錄/旺福
14:15:49下一首情歌/吳建豪
14:19:39愛笑的眼睛/徐若瑄
14:24:00Cheek To Cheek/Lady Gaga
14:30:30WAIT/瘦子E.SO
14:34:39怎麼能這樣/曾沛慈
14:39:29耀眼如星/K.Will
14:44:57狂風裡擁抱/信/A-Lin
14:50:40Tonight's The Night/Janet Jackson
14:55:42不好說/張三李四

15:04:57毋驚差幾歲/張涵雅
15:08:48真愛冒險/張韶涵
15:12:41If I Can't Have You/Shawn Mendes
15:18:00微笑分手/邱鋒澤
15:22:14一笑而過/那英
15:26:42Broken Strings/James Morrison
15:35:26DUMB DUMB/Somi
15:38:58突然心動/陳曉東
15:43:48凝視/閻奕格
15:50:07安和/蘇慧倫
15:55:07Try Me/安室奈美惠

16:04:06明天我要嫁給你/周華健
16:07:31Never Worn White/Katy Perry
16:11:11巧柯力/柯有倫/汪小敏
16:16:40I PROMISE YOU/Wanna One
16:20:55TRUE LOVE/Coldplay
16:24:55看見聽見/戴佩妮
16:33:35Beautiful days/Love Psychedelico
16:38:12對不起 我愛你/梁靜茹
16:42:42耳朵/李榮浩
16:48:43Higher/吳卓源
16:52:22Hey Boy/Sia
16:54:50我的時代/MC HotDog/張震嶽

08/23星期一
2:04:57 100萬/Crispy脆樂團
2:08:12 Million Dollar Bill/Whitney Houston
2:11:32貧民百萬歌星/MC HotDog
2:17:03愛在黎明破曉時/郭蘅祈
2:21:22 U/MC THE MAX
2:25:30對我好一點/江美琪
2:33:28還是要有長頸鹿才能/沒有才能
2:37:50 Everything/黃小琥
2:44:37當一個天使的憂愁/Erika 劉艾立/小宇 宋念宇
2:51:36 Crush on/李浩瑋
2:54:35 Last Days Of Disco/Robbie Williams

3:04:12仙山苦命郎/新寶島康樂隊
3:09:26 Leave Me Alone/Santana
3:13:17沒有醜女人/順子
3:18:19健康就好/劉思涵
3:23:02 Beautiful/Crush
3:26:40愛的飛行日記/周杰倫/楊瑞代
3:35:04讓浪漫作主/蔡健雅
3:40:11 No Matter What/Boyzone
3:46:48就讓這首歌/張?嶽/熱狗/侯佩岑
3:51:38 SIMPLE IS BEST/矢井田瞳

4:03:56靠近/庾澄慶
4:08:47心宇宙/王詩安
4:11:54 Baby I love you/Che'Nelle
4:17:52主打歌/屁孩 Ryan/rgry,
4:21:50 L.O.V.E./Jessie J
4:27:29吾愛無愛/白安
4:31:50背影/林宥嘉
4:38:47換季/SUPER JUNIOR
4:44:38 I have a Dream/Connie Talbot
4:49:05現在就出發/品冠
4:52:54愛的叮咚/徐懷鈺

08/20星期五
2:04:47賴床公主/ Lulu黃路梓茵
2:08:05 For the First Time in Forever/Kristen Bell
2:11:44永遠在一起/許哲珮
2:16:56該我的愛/陳小春
2:21:16孔雀魚/傅健穎
2:25:02 Story of My Life/One Direction
2:31:16 Moving On/BTS 防彈少年團
2:37:13 MY WAY/平井堅
2:42:51愛要有你才完美/那英
2:49:54 Angeline/陶吉吉
2:54:45任何形狀/DAPUN大胖/陳思涵

3:04:34若是明仔載/曹雅雯/壞特
3:08:15 Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word/Mary J. Blige
3:11:53 Why You Gonna Lie/高爾宣
3:16:43 Good People/Jack Johnson
3:20:04最初的起點/陳綺貞
3:22:41安九/老王樂隊
3:31:48藍天/張惠妹
3:35:56一切都會過去的/蔡明仁
3:40:52有什麼關係/FUNKY MONKEY BABY
3:48:16不好意思/Jelly Cookie
3:51:13你好/王大文
3:54:42小清新/四葉草

4:04:14穿過妳的黑髮的我的手/羅大佑
4:07:28我這個人/艾怡良
4:12:07 Whatever We Started/Richard Marx
4:18:06伯父/瘦子E.SO
4:21:07 Call you tonight/Whitney Houston
4:29:23不如這樣/陳奕迅
4:33:57是不是我還不夠好/莊鵑瑛
4:41:45復活LOVE/嵐
4:48:55愛她沒的救/杜德偉/品冠/曹格
4:52:48 Shake It/Sistar
4:56:16 Champagne Problems/Meghan Trainor

08/19星期四
14:04:36得獎的是/自由發揮
14:07:57All The Things/Pitbull/INNA
14:11:19我就是喜歡我這樣/蔡佩軒
14:16:16千千萬萬個你/周蕙
14:20:40你就像個小孩/阿杜
14:25:07SURVIVOR/Daniel Powter
14:30:35I'm Real/Jennifer Lopez
14:36:33追光者/岑寧兒
14:40:13她要我她不愛我/任賢齊
14:47:19一天/YELLOW 黃宣
14:51:25How People Move/AKMU 樂童音樂家
14:54:41給他/郭采潔

15:04:05噶瑪蘭的風吹飛懸懸/楊肅浩
15:08:23故鄉普悠瑪/陳建年
15:14:56Pieces of me/Ashlee Simpson
15:21:52Doin' Time/Lana Del Rey
15:25:08那個男孩/張三李四
15:29:06給你抱抱/李玖哲
15:37:02什麼來著/大塚 愛
15:41:35誰來陪我唱完這首歌/曹格
15:48:35ALWAYS/Wanna One
15:53:55女人多可愛/彭佳慧

16:04:08愛得比較深/陳淑樺
16:09:02Mercy/Shawn Mendes
16:12:32醜人多作怪/告五人
16:18:34Crowd Go Crazy/John Legend
16:21:32你點的歌救了我/A-Lin/J.Sheon
16:27:38量力而為/蘇慧倫
16:32:04熟悉/庾澄慶
16:39:12口紅的傳言/柴崎幸
16:49:00Too Many Beautiful Girls/SUPER JUNIOR
16:52:18小男人大男孩/蕭敬騰
16:55:50祝你開心/孫燕姿

08/18星期三
14:03:59腦公/蔡依林
14:06:46Devil/SUPER JUNIOR
14:11:55點點/魏暉倪
14:16:05東風破/周杰倫
14:21:13Bop Bop Baby/Westlife
14:29:47通勤打理/呂士軒
14:34:08魚/陳綺貞
14:38:49How Would You Feel/Ed Sheeran
14:45:47赤裸裸的心/Aimyon
14:50:30不搖滾/八三夭/房東的貓
14:56:15自由靈魂/梁心頤

15:04:14一世人的代誌/浩子
15:07:55Won't Go Home Without You/Maroon 5
15:11:54壞壞惹人愛/戴愛玲/信
15:18:35修煉愛情/林俊傑
15:23:10記得要忘記/S.H.E
15:30:14I Get a Kick Out of You/Lady Gaga
15:34:50零/柯有倫
15:39:30 Break Me Down/Marz23/JESSE
15:51:04自由的依靠/PIA吳蓓雅
15:54:57沒什麼大不了/Sweet Sorrow

16:03:59猜心/萬芳
16:08:40來不及說再見/劉學甫/許莉潔
16:13:03Linger/The Cranberries
16:19:29如果可以/9m88
16:23:48我心中尚未崩壞的地方/黃韻玲
16:28:25today is yesterday`s tomorrow/Michael Buble
16:34:21WHY DON'T WE/Rain/請夏
16:40:03在你身邊/韋禮安
16:43:31夢醒了/那英/王菲
16:49:51我的未來不是夢/茄子蛋
16:52:36靜止/楊乃文
16:55:52All of your life/Backstreet

08/17星期二
14:04:36Candy/Robbie Williams
14:07:49幸福氧氣/卓文萱
14:11:41加油/Teem Never Stop
14:17:02好嗎今天/袁婭維
14:21:34Bleeding Love/Leona Lewis
14:26:02Miss逃脫/蔣卓嘉
14:31:39我的事不關你的事/賴慈泓/孫盛希
14:35:57One In A Million/Ne-Yo
14:46:42有一天我會/蔡淳佳
14:51:53All Love/三代目 J SOUL Brothers

15:04:41我愛的就是你/蕭煌奇
15:08:34我又初戀了/五月天
15:12:24Cross My Mind/Twin Forks
15:17:57抱一個/曹雅雯
15:22:07有故事的人/周華健
15:26:34Gotta be you/One Direction
15:33:50Blanket/SURAN
15:38:24離心力/楊乃文
15:43:35信鴿/郭富城
15:49:56Millionaire/Cash Cash/Nelly
15:54:06再見錯的人/徐若瑄

16:04:08愚人碼頭/熊天平
16:09:09無香之水/彭佳慧
16:13:48Bottom of the ocean/Miley Cyrus
16:19:04夏夕夏景/旺福
16:22:16Summer Day/V6
16:29:36茉莉花/梁靜茹
16:34:34滯留鋒/理想混蛋
16:42:21Time And Again/A-Ha
16:49:30公主病/KIMBERLEY 陳芳語
16:52:35Say It Right/Nelly Furtado
16:56:11Face/GOT7

08/16星期一
14:04:00邊吃巧克力邊倒立/瑞瑪席丹
14:07:391234567/方大同
14:11:18You Don't Know What To Do/Mariah Carey
14:17:41光陰獨白/徐佳瑩
14:20:49一直給/嚴爵
14:26:03Melt My Heart/Eric Nam
14:32:08What I Like About You/Jonas Blue
14:36:49踮起腳尖愛/洪佩瑜
14:41:24回憶裡的瘋狂/光良
14:47:27Just Do Me /葛仲珊
14:53:08HURRY HOME/SoulJa

15:04:14遠近/廖文強
15:08:18我又想起你/江美琪
15:12:54All That I Need/Boyzone
15:20:44It's 2020/春艷
15:22:48B.O./OZI/9m88
15:26:39Forever/Chris Brown
15:34:24縱橫四海/李榮浩
15:39:20很愛很愛你/鄭秀文
15:43:38想你/孝琳
15:49:13愛在蔓延時/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
15:55:12Cutie Honey甜心戰士/倖田來未

16:03:59原來你什麼都不要/張惠妹
16:08:39千年以後/陳零九
16:13:16Lost In Japan/Shawn Mendes
16:18:10ihateyou1000/Karencici
16:20:06愛我不愛/蕭亞軒
16:23:28CALIFORNIA GIRLS/Katy Perry
16:31:27下一個天亮/郭靜
16:35:37愛情廢柴/周杰倫
16:42:59Rock With You/Michael Jackson
16:50:10Thunderclouds/LSD
16:53:23迷幻/蔡依林
16:56:50Candy Boy/TWICE

08/13星期五
14:04:09美少女/舒米恩
14:07:37姊姊 妳太美了Replay/SHINee
14:14:49我為什麼那麼愛你/張惠妹
14:19:37你有沒有更快樂/陳勢安
14:23:24I Choose You/Sara Bareilles
14:31:11愛吃味/呂士軒
14:36:12暖心/郁可唯
14:40:13The Freedom Song/Jason Mraz
14:46:29大發現/東京事變
14:52:12滿座/李榮浩

15:04:05志明與春嬌/五月天
15:08:39Me & You Together Song/The 1975
15:14:21能不能想起我/鄧福如
15:18:58這樣美好的理由/梁多一
15:23:01微光/黃義達
15:32:43性感肥宅/DAPUN 大胖/方Q
15:37:19德國下雪了/許哲珮
15:42:19L'Amoureuse 戀愛中的女人/Carla Bruni
15:47:18上帝的幫助/陳信安
15:52:16櫻花森林/星野 源

16:04:08一起看月亮/杜德偉
16:09:12Fallen/Lauren Wood
16:12:51寶貝好壞/馬念先
16:18:09句號/鄧紫棋
16:22:01Whatever It Takes/Imagine Dragons
16:29:33秋天別來/侯湘婷
16:33:54想念/Henry 劉憲華
16:38:16最美的時刻/伍佰& China Blue
16:44:46愛不愛我/大嘴巴
16:48:24kiss you feat. L.O.W.D./EXILE 放浪兄弟
16:54:27Faded/Alan Walker

08/12星期四
14:04:49Next To You/Chris Brown
14:09:11第一頁/張韶涵
14:16:10話題/周蕙
14:20:48只有妳/SUPER JUNIOR-始源
14:24:56理由/林憶蓮
14:33:35Woo Hoo/Christina Aguilera
14:40:06給我一個理由忘記/A-Lin
14:44:42暫時的記號/林俊傑
14:50:59安和/蘇慧倫
14:55:07Smile/柚子

15:04:07阿喜A車車/新寶島康樂隊
15:08:42More Than A Woman/911
15:15:02寧靜海/吳青峰
15:19:21氧氣/范曉萱
15:23:44捲捲頭/10CM
15:31:27Angels/春野
15:35:02不得不愛/潘瑋柏/弦子
15:40:43早上papapa/J.Sheon
15:45:41矜持/蕭敬騰
15:50:51忘不記/家家
15:55:12Boyfriend/Ashlee Simpson

16:04:06為什麼你背著我愛別人/許志安
16:08:58嘴硬(當我說不愛你)/朱俐靜
16:13:14This Is The Last Time/Keane
16:18:45Total Eclipse Of The Heart/Westlife
16:23:16溫蒂公主的侍衛/告五人
16:31:33可是我們呢/林凡
16:34:55藉口/周杰倫
16:40:17Never Growing Old/The Cranberries
16:48:33愛上陌生人/廖柏雅
16:52:06I Love You/Axwell
16:55:14Don't fight the feeling/EXO

08/11星期三
14:04:02速食全餐/許書豪
14:07:39I want you back/方大同
14:11:46It's like that/Mariah Carey
14:18:46有你的日常/PIA吳蓓雅
14:22:59忘了愛/范逸臣
14:27:55Sweety/酷懶之味
14:36:05Try/P!nk
14:41:11透明/劉若英
14:43:43一念之間/陶吉吉
14:50:38讓我們在一起吧/Lulu黃路梓茵
14:54:45本性難移/Kick The Can Crew

15:04:12阿爸/周杰倫/洪榮宏
15:08:32Because You Loved Me/Celine Dion
15:12:59酒鬼/李英宏
15:19:28The Seasons/CNBLUE
15:23:11天亮/曾寶儀
15:32:54Kiss My/Anne-Marie
15:36:52又不是這樣就不孤獨/嚴爵
15:49:20變形金剛/魏如萱
15:53:36LADY-GO-ROUND/B'z

16:04:01用情/張信哲
16:09:02阿峰今天沒有來/萬芳
16:13:46No Fear/Greyson Chance
16:19:23你留給我的遺憾無以名狀/理想混蛋 雞丁
16:23:12I'm Not Missing/Stacie Orrico
16:31:00第一個清晨/王力宏
16:35:32Flower/尹美萊
16:40:44我會醬子嗎/曹格
16:46:22What The Hell/Avril Lavigne
16:50:03百年孤寂/胖虎樂團
16:54:17給自己的歌/小男孩樂團

08/10星期二
14:05:00由我們主宰/大合唱
14:07:59好多好多/大塚 愛
14:11:31怎麼辦/S.H.E
14:17:58可惜了/彭佳慧
14:22:19人海中遇見你/林育群
14:26:06Stop Standing There/Avril Lavigne
14:33:32千年戀歌/東方神起
14:37:25愛上現在的我/閻奕格/高爾宣
14:41:43如果沒有你/莫文蔚
14:52:08在我成為井井有條的大人之前/郭采潔
14:56:11ORDINARY WORLD/Green Day

15:04:07雨咧落/鍾明軒
15:07:18只愛陌生人/許茹芸
15:11:49Talk To Me/ZAYN
15:16:52街角的祝福/戴佩妮
15:20:52櫻/中 孝介/河口恭吾
15:25:06愛你需要練習/品冠/薇婭
15:33:42NAKKA/AKMU 樂童音樂家/IU
15:38:18忘了我也不錯/王心凌
15:42:40少年/周華健
15:48:33眷戀/順子
15:52:37 Thanks for the Love/周湯豪

16:04:06我願意/王菲
16:08:27諷刺的情書/田馥甄
16:12:24TELEPHONE/James Blunt
16:17:18我就是喜歡我這樣/蔡佩軒
16:20:23玩遊戲/韋禮安
16:24:30Breathless/The Corrs
16:31:53到時再分手就好/ROY KIM
16:35:56好難得/丁噹
16:40:01Be The One/Bii畢書盡/李玉壐/陳以彥允
16:46:15我愛夏卡爾/江美琪
16:50:00Snow Dance/Dreams Come True
16:54:23沒感覺/宇宙人

08/09星期一
14:04:02紅蓮華/LiSA
14:07:53再出發/任賢齊/阿牛
14:12:32We Are/小男孩樂團
14:19:22祝我幸福/家家
14:23:44我會在這裡/BTOB
14:28:20誰/盧凱彤
14:35:41We've Got It Going On/Backstreet
14:40:27鯨落/林采欣
14:46:42Want To Want Me/Jason Derulo
14:50:06TAIPEI/Ponzii劉昊
14:54:23愛的海洋/曲婉婷

15:04:12親愛的美惠/張涵雅
15:07:10只有我看得見/10CM
15:09:45愛的詩篇/梁文音
15:17:07濕眠/KIMBERLEY 陳芳語
15:19:56DONE FOR ME/Charlie Puth
15:22:48壞蛋特調/J.Sheon
15:31:36白飯/leo王
15:34:55夏的季節/張清芳/林子良
15:40:27成為一家人吧/福山雅治
15:47:16You Owe Me Nothing In Retune/Alanis
15:53:17天空/元衞覺醒

16:04:01絲路/齊秦
16:08:11留給你的愛/吳汶芳
16:12:46Double Jack/BoA
16:18:13HIT IT/The Black Eyed Peas
16:21:45電司/Lollipop F
16:25:49臉盲症/安心亞
16:32:53一點點/林宥嘉
16:37:26知難而退/劉思涵/郁可唯
16:42:14太陽無用/Orange Range
16:46:18浪費時間/9m88
16:50:29那我先/孫盛希/呂士軒
16:54:35Send My Love/Adele

08/06星期五
14:04:48王子麵/五月天/孫燕姿
14:08:58超完美極品/安心亞
14:11:58Up In The Air/Thirty Seconds To Mars
14:18:15單人房雙人床/莫文蔚
14:22:51在我們忘記之前/廖文強
14:26:53Girls are back/少女時代
14:33:0188的車/春艷
14:35:48scream & shout/will.i.am
14:41:37我很好，那麼你呢/王心凌
14:52:00上海一九四三/周杰倫
14:56:20口紅的傳言/柴崎幸

15:04:07博杯/江蕙
15:08:56I LOVE YOU/堂本剛
15:13:23在名為未來的波浪裡/原子邦妮
15:19:19左右違法/李芷婷
15:23:14ONE SHOT, TWO SHOT/BoA
15:26:41Super Nice Girl/周湯豪
15:33:06救世主/動力火車
15:38:31承認/辛曉琪
15:43:08LOVE IS STILL THE ANSWER/Jason Mraz
15:51:08晚點開竅/文慧如
15:54:58She Makes Me Happy/Rod Stewart

16:04:03健康歌/范曉萱/楊峻榮
16:06:53先不要/陳漢典
16:10:13I Want You Back/Bananarama
16:15:40直到永久/MISIA
16:17:03好好唱歌/黃小琥
16:20:47王妃/蕭敬騰
16:27:13What Lovers Do/Maroon 5
16:30:26差不多姑娘/鄧紫棋
16:35:17我不/侯湘婷
16:43:24小人國/小人
16:46:42Flamingo/米津玄師
16:49:57自成一派/鄧福如
16:52:55Hot Times不要考驗/S.M. The Ballad

08/05星期四
14:04:09一個便當/盧廣仲
14:07:29 擱淺的鯨魚/Tizzy Bac
14:11:49友情-上等牛肉花/松浦亞彌
14:17:22如果我變成回憶/TANK
14:22:02 Touch Love/尹美來
14:26:12阿喜A車車/新?島康樂隊
14:33:18Pa Ti/Jennifer Lopez
14:37:0來個蹦蹦/玖壹壹/Ella 陳嘉樺
14:41:20愛我的人和我愛的人/游鴻明
14:51:46兄弟你說/草爺
14:55:23One Flesh/Do As Infinity

15:04:05小姐請你乎我愛/梁文音/六甲樂團
15:07:20KESI/Camilo/Shawn Mendes
15:10:13Sunny Day/李玟
15:17:59生日快樂/劉若英
15:21:20Somewhere Someday/成始境
15:25:44有人在嗎/邱鋒澤
15:33:01仍舊小黑魚/持田香織
15:38:01歇斯底里/林宥嘉
15:43:45十七/S.H.E
15:50:34Guts Over Fear/Eminem/Sia
15:55:32假高潮/Spark/Karencici

16:04:09用心良苦/張宇
16:08:33愛在蔓延時/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
16:13:25Pour Some Sugar On Me/Tom Cruise
16:18:31敢愛就來/Erika 劉艾立
16:22:22DAYA/王艷薇
16:25:07Together/Pet Shop Boys
16:31:14親愛的/徐若瑄
16:36:10想你了/光良
16:41:30La La La...為了你/SS501
16:47:22靜止/楊乃文
16:50:52SKYWALKER/怕胖團
16:54:45In Your Arms/Backstreet Boys

08/04星期三
14:04:00雨劈哩啪啦下/宮閣
14:07:35呼吸 /J.Sheon
14:10:47RAIN ON ME/Lady Gaga
14:15:05忽然/韋禮安
14:19:35哭笑不得/柯有倫
14:23:58Let's Love/David Guetta/Sia
14:29:38七十億分之一加一/吳卓源/婁峻碩
14:33:04O -正.反.合./東方神起
14:38:26是時候/孫燕姿
14:47:18今天是情人節/莊鵑瑛
14:54:06上班族On The Beach/Porno Graffitti 色情塗鴉

15:04:14追追追/黃妃
15:08:52Get on your boots/U2
15:12:14來互相傷害/八三夭/A-Lin
15:17:40明天愛誰/容祖兒
15:22:14陣雨Sudden Rain/Eric Nam
15:26:33我焦慮就會一直碎碎念/深白色二人組
15:33:07Hot Summer/Prince
15:36:3280年代/1976
15:41:49給電影人的情書/蔡琴
15:48:28Always/中島美嘉
15:54:41WAIT/瘦子E.SO

16:03:56冰雨/劉德華
16:08:24BREATHE/李遐怡
16:13:01我就奇怪/魚丁糸
16:17:45差不多先生/MC HotDog熱狗
16:22:09Beautiful/Snoop dogg
16:26:55不解釋親吻/蕭亞軒
16:33:31滯留鋒/理想混蛋
16:38:30如果你也聽說/張惠妹
16:44:43怪物/星野 源
16:49:17I saw her standing there/The Beatles
16:52:10小護士/五月天
16:54:52Party Days/魏如昀

08/03星期二
14:04:36PEACOCK/Katy Perry
14:08:24妙妙妙/徐懷鈺
14:11:40檸檬甜甜的/何維健
14:16:59如果你愛我/艾怡良
14:20:52愛在蔓延時/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
14:25:44For You/Rita Ora/Liam Panne
14:31:41是在哈囉/屁孩 Ryan/rgry
14:34:43 (I Could Have) Danced All Night/Rip Slyme
14:39:24我是幸福的/梁靜茹
14:50:30美好的你/CNBLUE
14:54:20讓我們在一起吧/Lulu黃路梓茵

15:04:05I wanna be your girl/曹雅雯
15:07:22Say That You Love Me/AK 柿原朱美
15:12:54You'll Never Know/J.Sheon
15:17:56Paradise/Beyond
15:22:05Girl At Home/Taylor Swift
15:25:39什麼歌/五月天
15:32:32Talk !/ oceanfromtheblue
15:36:22Fever/吳卓源
15:41:13小鎮姑娘/陶吉吉
15:47:33獨上C樓/YELLOW 黃宣/范曉萱
15:51:20Ghetto Love/Macy Gray
15:54:18獨領風騷/杜德偉

16:04:08糖果/藍心湄
16:09:31戀愛漢堡/大塚 愛/AKKOGOR
16:12:53感應心電/張立昂
16:18:53眼淚博物館/鄭興
16:23:36想幸福的人/楊丞琳
16:27:59To Be With You/Mr.Big
16:33:43新世界/告五人/阿爆
16:37:28GOLD/Wanna One
16:42:12原諒我/蕭敬騰
16:48:10Sway/Pussycat Dolls Pussycat Dolls
16:51:20哈你歌/庾澄慶/小S
16:55:23塞車恰恰/旺福

08/02星期一
14:04:24Friends Forever/Puffy
14:08:161，2，3，4 ！/強辯樂團
14:12:12太青春/超克7
14:17:14勇氣/魏嘉瑩/魏如昀
14:21:01少年/光良/曹格
14:25:07I Bet My Life/Imagine Dragons
14:30:28Why You Gonna Lie/高爾宣
14:33:13Never Ever/GOT7
14:37:33哼情歌/謝和弦/徐佳瑩
14:46:42電影/詹森淮
14:50:57日光戀人/許哲珮
14:57:01貓中毒/手越增田

15:04:14風風雨雨這多年/洪敬堯
15:08:42Warwick Avenue/Duffy
15:12:21老友記/李榮浩
15:20:06假如瞳孔有濾鏡/炎亞綸
15:23:19With Love/Hilary Duff
15:26:13渴了/張惠妹
15:32:40請你不要在這鬼叫/蔣卓嘉
15:37:02伯樂/林宥嘉
15:41:29You Are My Everything/Gummy
15:47:01寫一首歌/蛋堡/方大同
15:50:28抱抱/榕幫
15:54:13True Love/P!nk

16:03:56你知不知道/張學友
16:08:02好好/李宣榕
16:11:36From The Day/I Am They
16:16:50無所謂/5566
16:20:55Nobody Else/Backstreet Boys
16:24:25你要不要先回家/吳映潔
16:29:09猜心/方炯鑌
16:34:21為了我道別/DIA
16:40:32態度/1976
16:47:22Save Your Tears/The Weeknd/Ariana Granda
16:50:45糖衣/Matzka/Karencic
16:53:50穿越時空愛上你/自由發揮

［翻轉視界 8］逃離禁錮之地：離開北韓我學會自由與憐憫
　
“If you don't know the words, that means you don't understand the concept, and therefore, you don't even realize that concept is even a possibility.” —— human rights activist Yeonmi Park。
　
「如果你不知道某些詞彙，那就意味著你並不了解某些概念，因此你也不會意識到，那些概念可以是一種可能。」——人權鬥士朴延美
　
對出逃前的她而言，自由與溫飽是很奢侈的理念，更無法了解「愛」的全貌。當我們無法得知世界發生了什麼，無法想像那超越自身認知的世界，我們便無法真正地同理他人。今天我想邀請大家，以不同的角度，重新感受自由、溫飽與愛的可貴。
　
★★★★★★★★★★★★
　
I was born in 1993 in the northern part of North Korea, in a town called Hyesan, which is on the border with China. I had loving parents and one older sister. Before I was even 10 years old, my father was sent to a labor camp for engaging in illegal trading. Now, by "illegal trading" -- he was selling clogs, sugar, rice and later copper to feed us. In 2007, my sister and I decided to escape. She was 16 years old, and I was 13 years old.
　
1. on the border with 鄰近邊界
2. labor camp 勞改營
3. illegal trading 非法的交易
　
１９９３年我出生在北韓的北部，一個名叫惠山的小鎮，鄰近中國邊界。我有愛我的父母與一位姐姐。在我１０歲大的時候，父親就被送去勞改營，因為他非法買賣一些東西。所謂的非法買賣，其實他是賣一些木鞋、糖、米，之後還賣了銅，只為了餵飽我們。２００７年，姐姐和我決定逃跑。她當時１６歲，而我１３歲。
　
★★★★★★★★★★★★
　
I need you to understand what the word "escape" means in the context of North Korea. We were all starving, and hunger means death in North Korea. So it was the only option for us. I didn't even understand the concept of escape, but I could see the lights from China at night, and I wondered if I go where the light is, I might be able to find a bowl of rice. It's not like we had a grand plan or maps. We did not know anything about what was going to happen. Imagine your apartment building caught fire. I mean, what would you do? Would you stay there to be burned, or would you jump off out of the window and see what happens? That's what we did. We jumped out of the house instead of the fire.
　
4. in the context of 在⋯⋯的情境中
5. concept 概念；觀念；思想
6. a grand plan 一個遠大的計畫
7. catch fire 著火
　
你們要知道，「逃跑」這兩字在北韓意味著什麼。我們天天挨餓，而飢餓在北韓意味著死亡。所以逃跑是我們唯一的選擇。我當時還不了解逃跑是什麼意思，但晚上我能看見中國那邊的燈光，我想著如果我能到有光的地方，也許就能找到一碗飯。我們沒有什麼遠大的計畫或地圖。我們完全不知道，接下來會發生什麼事。想像一下，你的公寓失火了，你會怎麼辦？你會坐以待斃，還是跳窗然後再看著辦？我們就是那樣。我們從大樓上跳了下來， 而不是等火燒上來。
　
★★★★★★★★★★★★
　
North Korea is unimaginable. It's very hard for me when people ask me what it feels like to live there. To be honest, I tell you: you can't even imagine it. The words in any language can't describe, because it's a totally different planet, as you cannot imagine your life on Mars right now. For example, the word "love" has only one meaning: love for the Dear Leader. There's no concept of romantic love in North Korea. And if you don't know the words, that means you don't understand the concept, and therefore, you don't even realize that concept is even a possibility.
　
8. unimaginable 無法想像
9. no concept of... 沒有⋯的概念
10. romantic love 浪漫愛
　
北韓是難以想像的。對我來說，要回答住在北韓是什麼感覺，非常困難。老實說，我可以告訴各位——你無從想像。沒有任何語言可以描述，因為那是個截然不同的星球，就像你現在無法想像自己在火星上的生活一樣。比如說，「愛」只有一個意思：愛偉大的領袖。在北韓沒有那種浪漫之愛的概念。如果你不知道某些詞彙，那就意味著你並不了解某些概念，因此你也不會意識到，那些概念可以是一種可能。
　
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Let me give you another example. Growing up in North Korea, we truly believed that our Dear Leader is an almighty god who can even read my thoughts. I was even afraid to think in North Korea. We are told that he's starving for us, and he's working tirelessly for us, and my heart just broke for him. When I escaped to South Korea, people told me that he was actually a dictator, he had cars, many, many resorts, and he had an ultraluxurious life. And then I remember looking at a picture of him, realizing for the first time that he is the largest guy in the picture. And it hit me. Finally, I realized he wasn't starving. But I was never able to see that before, until someone told me that he was fat.
　
11. an almighty god 一個全能的神
12. tirelessly 不屈不撓地；堅忍地
13. a dictator 獨裁者
14. it hit me 突然想到、意識到 
15. resort 度假地（此處係指北韓獨裁者有很多度假別墅）
16. ultraluxurious 極其奢華的
17. have a…life 過著⋯⋯的生活
　
讓我再舉一個例子。在北韓長大，我們真心相信我們偉大的領袖是全能的神，他甚至能看穿我在想什麼。我在北韓甚至不敢思考。我們聽說他為我們挨餓、不眠不休地為我們工作，而我為此感到心痛。我逃到南韓後，有人跟我說他其實是獨裁者，他有很多車、很多很多渡假別墅，他的生活極為奢華。我記得自己看著一張有他的照片，第一次意識到他是照片裡體型最大的那個。這件事讓我大受打擊。那時我才終於了解，他沒有挨餓。但我以前總無法看清這些，直到有人跟我說他很胖，我才恍然大悟。
　
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Really, someone had to teach me that he was fat. If you have never practiced critical thinking, then you simply see what you're told to see. The biggest question also people ask me is: "Why is there no revolution inside North Korea? Are we dumb? Why is there no revolution for 70 years of this oppression?" And I say: If you don't know you're a slave, if you don't know you're isolated or oppressed, how do you fight to be free? I mean, if you know you're isolated, that means you are not isolated. Not knowing is the true definition of isolation, and that's why I never knew I was isolated when I was in North Korea. I literally thought I was in the center of the universe.
　
18. critical thinking 批判性思考
19. revolution 革命
20. dumb 愚蠢的*
21. oppression 壓迫；壓制；欺壓
22. isolated and oppressed 與世隔絕的與被壓迫的
　
真的，要有人教我，他這樣叫做胖。如果你沒學過批判性思考，你看到的就只會是別人跟你說的。其他人對我提出的大哉問還有：「為何北韓沒有革命？我們傻嗎？為何歷經７０年的壓迫，卻沒人發動革命？」我回答：「如果你不知道自己是奴隸，不知道自己被與世隔絕、壓迫，你要如何為自由而戰？我的意思是，如果你知道自己被與世隔絕，那就表示你並非真的與世隔絕。與世隔絕的真正定義是無知，所以我從不知道，在北韓的我與世隔絕。我真的以為我們是宇宙的中心。

*dumb: https://bit.ly/3fG5XOk
　
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So here is my idea worth spreading: a lot of people think humans inherently know what is right and wrong, the difference between justice and injustice, what we deserve and we don't deserve. I tell them: BS. Everything, everything must be taught, including compassion. If I see someone dying on the street right now, I will do anything to save that person. But when I was in North Korea, I saw people dying and dead on the streets. I felt nothing. Not because I'm a psychopath, but because I never learned the concept of compassion. Only, I felt compassion, empathy and sympathy in my heart after I learned the word "compassion" and the concept, and I feel them now.
　
23. inherently 與生俱來地
24. justice and injustice 正義與不義
25. psychopath 精神病患者
26. compassion, empathy and sympathy 憐憫、同理與同情*
　
我覺得值得分享的想法是：很多人以為，人類生來就能分辨是非對錯，懂得正義與邪惡的差別，我們值得被怎樣對待。我跟他們說：放屁。所有的事，所有的事都得經過教導，包含憐憫。如果我現在看見有人在路邊奄奄一息，我會不顧一切來救他。但我在北韓的時候，會眼睜睜看著有人橫死街頭，卻沒有任何感覺。並非因為我是心理病態，而是我從未學過憐憫的概念。只有在我的內心感受到憐憫、同理與同情，我才學會「憐憫」一詞與其概念，而如今我已能感受到這些。
　
*compassion: a strong feeling of sympathy and sadness for the suffering or bad luck of others and a wish to help them

empathy: the ability to share someone else's feelings or experiences by imagining what it would be like to be in that person's situation

sympathy: (an expression of) understanding and care for someone else's suffering
　
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Now I live in the United States as a free person.
　
現在我以自由人的身分住在美國。
　
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And recently, the leader of the free country, our President Trump, met with my former god. And he decided human rights is not important enough to include in his agendas, and he did not talk about it. And it scares me. We live in a world right now where a dictator can be praised for executing his uncle, for killing his half brother, killing thousands of North Koreans. And that was worthy of praise. And also it made me think: perhaps we all need to be taught something new about freedom now. Freedom is fragile. I don't want to alarm you, but it is. It only took three generations to make North Korea into George Orwell's "1984." It took only three generations. If we don't fight for human rights for the people who are oppressed right now who don't have a voice, as free people here, who will fight for us when we are not free? Machines? Animals? I don't know.
　
27. agenda 議程
28. be praised for 因⋯⋯獲得讚揚
29. execute (v.) 處決
30. worthy of sth 適合某物或具有某物的特徵
31. fragile 脆弱
　
最近，自由國度的領袖，我們的川普總統，和我以前的神會面。他認定，人權沒那麼重要，不需排進議程中，所以對此他隻字不提。這嚇壞我了。我們竟身在一個獨裁者處決伯父還能獲得讚揚的世界裡，他殺害同父異母的哥哥、殺害成千上萬的北韓人民，竟還能得到讚揚。這不禁使我開始思考，也許我們現在都要學習自由的新涵義。自由很脆弱。我不想嚇你，但事實如此。短短三個世代，就讓北韓淪為喬治．歐威爾筆下的《１９８４》。只花了三個世代。如果我們不為人權而戰，不為受壓迫、不為無法發聲的人而戰，當身為自由人的我們不自由時，誰還願意為我們而戰？機器嗎？動物嗎？我不知道。
　
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I think it's wonderful that we care about climate change, animal rights, gender equality, all of these things. The fact that we care about animals' rights, that means that's how beautiful our heart is, that we care about someone who cannot speak for themselves. And North Koreans right now cannot speak for themselves. They don't have internet in the 21st century. We don't have electricity, and it is the darkest place on earth right now. Now I want to say something to my fellow North Koreans who are living in that darkness. They might not believe this, but I want to tell them that an alternative life is possible. Be free.
　
32. speak for oneself 為某人發聲
33. alternative life 另一種生活
　
我覺得我們能關心氣候變遷、動物權益、性別平等諸如此類之事，真的很美好。因為，我們關心動物權益，就代表了我們的心地有多善良，也代表我們關心無法為自己發聲的對象。北韓人民現在無法為自己發聲。身處２１世紀的他們，沒有網路可用。我們沒有電，那裡是當今地球上最暗的地方。現在我想告訴那些生活在北韓黑暗中的同胞。也許他們不會相信我，但我想告訴他們，生命仍有其他可能——意即自由的生活。
　
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From my experience, literally anything is possible. I was bought, I was sold as a slave. But now I'm here, and that is why I believe in miracles. The one thing that I learned from history is that nothing is forever in this world. And that is why we have every reason to be hopeful. Thank you.
　
34. slave 奴隸
35. miracle 奇蹟
　
就我的經驗，真的什麼事都有可能發生。我被人買走，賣給別人當奴隸。但我現在在這裡，這也就是為什麼我相信奇蹟。我從歷史上學到的一件事，就是世上沒有什麼是永恆的。而這也是我們無論如何都能懷有希望的原因。謝謝大家。
　
資訊出處：https://bit.ly/32p5HiK
　
圖片出處：https://bit.ly/32n2zEe
　
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如何增進同理心：https://bit.ly/34qSKnC
　
#ChangingPerspectives
#翻轉視界

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翻轉視界系列文章: https://bit.ly/3fPvKUs

#尋人啟事
#胡湘荷妳在哪裡

我的母親已八十歲，
疫情期間，
母親常在電話跟我聊一些過去的事情，
母親的記憶力非常好，
從她十歲開始到現在，
她幾乎能記得所有的事情。

當然，
她記的幾乎都是些令人心碎的事。

就像她的妹妹＿
我的小阿姨，
跟她失聯了四十三年的事，
一直讓母親忘不了。

小阿姨屬猴，
64歲、
1956年出生。
大約1977年離開緬甸，
去到泰國投靠大舅，
又輾轉在1978年左右去了加拿大。
之後，
就失去了聯絡。

自從有網路以來，
我就幫忙母親在各種尋人版上刊登過尋人啟事，
但都沒有下文。
可能是刊登的資訊不齊全。

四十三年前，
小阿姨從緬甸到泰國又到加拿大，
可能證件、姓名等都跟原本的不一樣了。

近期，
與我母親通話，
母親又提到失聯的小阿姨。
她叮嚀我們是否能幫忙她再找找看。

母親今年八十歲，
她很想知道她的小妹，
是否還活在這世界上？

附上母親說的話，
她讓我公佈在網路上。

希望有緣，
我的小阿姨能看到。

Midi 於永和
2020 April 12

#胡湘荷
#尋人

胡湘荷，妳在哪裡？

阿湘，
我是妳的二姐胡明珠。
我們分別有好長一段時間了。

妳離開緬甸時，
我二兒子才剛出生，
都還不滿一個月，
妳來看他時，
還說：
「他的臉白白的，
是不是我給他擦粉？」
現在，
我二兒子四十三歲，
我呢，
已經快滿八十二歲，
八十多歲，
是老人了。

人家說，
人愈老記性愈差，
我是相反，
我的記性反倒是愈老愈好。
但是，我能記住的，
都是些傷心的事情。

也許，
我們這代人，
也沒有什麼快樂的事情可以記住。
就像妳的離開，
我們從此失去聯絡，
想起妳，
就讓我難過。

妳還活著嗎？
我想妳會活得好好的。
妳有幾個小娃了？
過得怎麼樣呢？

四十三年前，
妳離開腊戌時，
妳還在腊戌漢人學校唸書。

有天放學，
我去攔住妳，
跟妳說：
「妳以後每天下課後就來我家吃飯，
別去大姐家吃了…」
妳說：「好」。
妳也就跟著我到我家吃飯了。

我還記得，
妳才剛坐下，
我不知怎麼搞的，
就說了那些話。

我說：
「大姐讓妳以後來我這裡吃飯，
別去她家吃了，
讓妳三姐去她家吃，
妳三姐不挑嘴，
妳比較挑嘴…」。

這些話，
是大姐跟我說的，
我當時太懵，
太老實，
我也不曉得，
為什麼要說這些大姐講的話？
為什麼要講給妳聽？

我完全，
沒有擔待不了妳的意思呀。
不管多窮，
姐妹間互相照顧都是應該的，
我轉述大姐說妳的那些話，
是沒有任何理由的，
就是我以為是姐妹之間的聊天，
講出來而已。

我那時候過得很困難，
養著六個小娃，
病死了兩個。
但是，
照顧自己的妹妹是天經地義的。

那天，
我邊說就邊到廚房去炒菜，
難得妳來這裡吃飯，
總要多一樣什麼菜才行。

我炒完菜端著出來，
妳就不見了。

當時，
房東許老嬤嬤還在場，
她說，
「我轉進廚房，
妳就站起來走了…」

我那時才發覺；
我講錯話了。

妳這麼敏感的人呀！

我一路追著妳，
追到大水塘路上＿
到妳跟妳三姐住的地方，
妳正在哭。
妳正在哭著跟妳三姐吵架，
妳跟妳三姐說：
「二哥寄來的錢分來…」
妳三姐不敢應妳，
在旁沉默著。
這筆妳要的錢，
確實是妳二哥寄來給妳們兩姐妹的生活費。

那時，
媽媽剛去世不久，
大哥人去了泰國；
在泰國北部滿堂安了家，
家裡所有的兄弟陸續去了泰國。
而爸爸因為沒身份證在貴概被移民局抓住，
送到仰光坐滿九年牢，
緬甸政府正打算著把他送到台灣去的時候…

那天，
我看著妳哭，
我就明白了妳的心情。

妳三姐在準備跟她愛人私奔，
在腊戌妳也只有大姐、我和妳三姐了。

我和大姐早結婚，
各自已有有家庭。
如今妳三姐又要嫁人，
大哥他們又遠在泰國，
母親去世，
父親坐牢。
妳接下來就要孤苦零丁的一個人生存了。

一個十八歲的女孩。
我知道妳的害怕和難過。

那天，
看著妳哭，
我很後悔把大姐說的話講出來。

妳應該了解我的。
我一直都盡力照顧我的家人，
當時從雲南背著妳逃難到緬甸邊境，
背了一天一夜。
我都是自願的。

妳記得嗎？
妳到腊戌讀書時，
很想要一條件仔褲，
那時許多人都買不起，
我還是費盡力氣買給妳。
妳知道我是心疼妳的。

妳離開腊戌的那天，
妳說妳要去泰國了。
臨走時，
我拿了300塊錢給妳，
妳知道嗎？
那時候我拿出300塊錢緬幣是到處借來的錢呀。

阿湘，
我知道妳一直都在受苦，
去到泰國，
大嫂可能待不得妳，
妳二哥、三哥他們當時也沒能力照顧妳，
妳在泰國又沒有合法的身份；
哪可能有其它去處。

最後妳選擇結婚，
我想也只是為了解脫這些難過的生活罷了。

之後，
就聽說妳嫁了人，
跟著丈夫家去了加拿大。

之後，
我就再也就打聽不到妳的下落了。

我們最後的連繫，
停留在泰國北部滿堂，
或是停留在泰緬邊境美賽，
我都有些記不得了。

那時，
聽說妳從大哥家跑出來了？
又聽說妳去暫住在一對老年夫妻的家裡？
這些，
都是後來傳到腊戌的消息了。

妳去加拿大前，
還寄來給我和大姐和妳三姐每個人一件衣裳布、
一條籠基。
三份禮物裡夾著三張白紙，
寫著：「大姐的、二姐的、三姐的…」。
我還記得，
那是託「義號佛堂」楊前人帶來的禮物。

那條籠基到現在我還留著＿
孔雀花紋的。

阿湘，
我這個作二姐的也羞愧妳了。
當時，
聽到這些關於妳的困難的消息，
只能每天想念著，
想到傷心，
我沒有任何能力。

那時，
我是，
連從緬甸腊戌到泰國邊境的車票都買不起呀。
當時我養著這麼多小娃，
吃一口飯都難。

阿湘，
現在講這些都只是回憶了，
都是我們老人家的回憶，
都不重要了。

那為什麼還要講這些呢？
就是，
為了，
想讓妳看到，
看到這些我說的話，
證實，
我是妳的二姐而已。
想讓妳知道，
我一直在找妳。

我活到八十歲，
夠了，
人活這麼老沒什麼意思，
都盡是傷心的事情。

我不知哪天會死去。
但如果可能的話，
在死去之前，
能讓我知道一下妳的消息。

我想知道，
妳在哪裡？
我想知道，
妳還活著嗎？

阿湘，
爸爸十幾年前已經去世，
大哥六年前去世，
連大姐，
前年也不在世上了。

妳二哥；
他住在泰國山邊荒地裡，
幫人家看田地，
過得不是很好，
但也不用擔心，
我在泰國的二兒子和大姑娘時常會去照顧他。

妳三哥，
講到也是讓我難過呀。

他大前年腦出血，
去醫院醫好了，
但醫好後，
很奇怪，
突然忘記了漢人話，
只會講泰國話。
後來不久，
他就偷偷上吊自殺了。

你說，
我們兄弟姐妹這是什麼樣的命運呢？

阿湘，
我們家沒剩下什麼人了，
妳三姐、妳四哥還在泰國。
還有我，
我還活著。
我還在緬甸，在腊戌。

除了妳，
我們一家人也就剩下這三個人了。

阿湘，
我們已經分別已四十三年，
妳也有六十多歲了吧？
我很想知道，
妳在哪裡？
妳還活著嗎？

如果有緣，
妳看到這信，
就回我一下吧。

妳的二姐胡明珠，
日日夜夜，
在等妳的消息。

二姐胡明珠　於緬甸腊戌
2020 年4月11日
姪Midi代筆

找人信箱：humingju1638@gmail.com

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#notice for a missing person

translated by Jane Lin
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Where are you, Hu Shine-Ho?

Ah-Shine,
This is your 2nd sister, Hu Ming-Ju. It has been a long time since we last saw each other. When you left Burma, my 2nd son was not even one-month-old. You asked why he was so fair-skinned? Had I put powder on his face? Now, he is 43 and I am almost 82.

Eighty something...I am indeed an old woman! People say that you lose your memory as you age. I am quite the opposite. The older I get, the better I remember! But, what I remember is nothing but sadness. Perhaps, our generation just doesn't have much happiness. Like you leaving home, we losing contact forever…. The thought of you puts me in such despair. Are you still alive? I imagine you living a good life?!! How many children? How are you?

Forty-three years ago, you were still a student at Chinese High School in Lashio. One day after school, I went to intercept you, "From now on, come to my home after school. Don't go to 1st sister's for dinner anymore." You said, "OK" and followed me home.

I still remember clearly that you had just sat down and I said, "The first sister asks that you come to me for dinner. She will take 3rd sister who's easy-going, not like you, a picky eater." I don't know what possessed me that day? Why I had to tell you what 1st sister had to say? Was I too naive? Too honest? Too stupid? I had absolutely no intension not to take care of you - we are sisters!!!! We have to care for each other, no matter how poor we are!!! The first sister's words just came out as a casual chat between sisters. Nothing more!

Life was tough for me at the time. Diseases took away two of my six children. But that didn't mean I would ignore my God-given responsibility as your elder sister. Without realizing the impact of my "casual chat", I went into the kitchen wondering what additional dish I could come up with for your first dinner with us. When I came out with the dishes, you were already gone! According to our landlady, Granny Hsu, you just got up and left as soon as I was out of sight. Only then did I realize my stupid mistake and how sensitive you were! Immediately, I ran after you, all the way to Big Pond Road where you and 3rd sister stayed. You were crying, asking 3rd sister for the money that 2nd brother sent. 3rd sister just kept quiet.

Indeed! The money that you demanded from 3rd sister was to cover living expenses for both of you. At that time, Mother had already passed away. The first brother went to Thailand, had already settled his own family in Pong Ngam. All the brothers followed suit. Father got caught in Kutkai by the immigration for not having an I.D. and had been in prison in Rangoon for 9 years. The Burmese government was just about to send him to Taiwan…. That day, while watching you cry, I understood how you felt. The third sister was getting ready to run away with her lover and both 1st sister and I were married young with our own families to deal with. As an 18-year-old with no mother, a father in prison, you must have felt all alone, sad and very scared.

I was filled with regrets watching you that day. But, please understand that I have always tried my best to take care of my family. When we escaped from Yunnan to Burma as refugees, I carried you on my back all day and all night without any complaints. When you went to Lashio for school, you wanted a pair of jeans so badly, remember? It was such a luxury that most people could not afford. Yet, I gathered all my might to get you a pair. You know I always have a soft spot for you, don't you? The day you were leaving Lashio for Thailand, do you know how many places I had to try to gather 300 Burmese kyats for you???

Ah-Shine, I know it was a huge struggle for you in Thailand. It's impossible that 1st sister-in-law would put you up. Second and 3rd brothers were in no position to help you….. I suppose you were pushed into marriage, just to end this desperate situation. Last I heard, you moved to Canada with your husband. From that point onward, in spite of all the efforts, I just couldn't find any trace of your whereabouts.

Our last contact stopped at Pong Ngam, Thailand. Or, was it MaeSai? I can't quite remember now. The news came to Lashio that you had run away from 1st brother's home. Later, you were temporarily staying with an older couple….

Before leaving for Canada, you sent, via Abbott Yang of the Yi Buddhist Hall, a package for us - each gift had a piece of dress fabric and a longyi, clearly labeled on a piece of white paper: "for 1st sister," "for 2nd sister," "for 3rd sister." I still have that longyi, with a peacock pattern, after all these years!

Ah-Shine, I feel deeply embarrassed to be your elder sister. Upon hearing the challenges that you had to face at the time, I could do nothing but worrying and feeling sad. I couldn't even afford the bus fare from Lashio to the Thai border. I barely managed to feed my own children!
Ah-Shine, What's the use of talking about these old memories? These sad memories of us old people have no importance but to serve to show you that I am indeed your 2nd sister.… that I have been looking for you all these years.

To live in my eighties is more than enough for me. It's not much fun to live this long - just a lifetime of sadness. I have no idea when I will die and I don't really care. I just wish that I could hear from/about you before I leave this world. I want to know where you are. I want to know if you are still alive.

Ah-Shine, Father passed away more than a decade ago. The first brother left us 6 years ago, so did the first sister 3 years ago. The second brother works as a field caretaker in a remote Thai mountainside. It's not a good life, but both my 2nd son and first daughter are also in Thailand; can visit and take care of him often. The saddest is our 3rd brother. He had a stroke 3 years ago. After recovery, he suddenly forgot his Chinese, could only speak in Thai. Not long after, he hanged himself! Please tell me what kind of fate has been bestowed on our siblings??? What is the meaning of life???
Ah-Shine, There aren't that many of us left, only 3rd sister and 4th brother in Thailand and me still in Burma. In Lashio.

Ah-Shine, We have been apart for 43 years. You should be in your 60s by now. I really would like to know if you are still alive and where you live. God willing, you will see this letter and reply!!! (humingju1638@gmail.com)

Waiting to hear from you, day and night!

Second sister, Hu Ming-Ju
Lashio, Myanmar
April 11. 2020

大家好～
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