【國立臺灣大學109學年度畢業典禮 致詞代表 資訊工程學系韓哈斯】
Student Address, National Taiwan University Commencement 2021
International student Seth Austin Harding from Department of Computer Science and Information Engineering
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校長、教授、以及在螢幕前的各位同學，大家好。非常感謝臺大給我這個機會。我是韓哈斯，來自美國華盛頓特區。我會以自身的真實經驗出發，來跟大家分享臺大帶給我的收穫。
我當初為什麼選擇來台灣求學呢？我小時候非常喜歡看武打片，然後我十歲的時候去看了一部電影叫做「功夫熊貓」。這部電影成為了我最喜歡的電影，主角「阿波」的故事跟我的故事很像。我看完了之後就決定要開始學功夫，所以去了「美國武術學院」。那個時候我每天都聽旁邊的人講中文，到了高中我就決定開始學中文。當時我遇到了一位貴人，她是從台北到美國來教書的中文老師，她教的課是我當時最喜歡的課，我每天去她的教室跟好朋友練習。到了高中畢業時，我是全高中中文最好的非母語人士。同時，我第二喜歡的課程是電腦科學，那時候我是程式能力數一數二的學生。後來在成功錄取夢寐以求的學校：臺灣大學之後，我感到雀躍不已，因為我既可以繼續學習中文，也可以持續在世界頂尖的學府中，往電腦科學的方向精進自我。
不過老實說，當我回顧大一的時期，我也曾迷失自我。雖然我修了很多很多的中文課，但是我那時只聽得懂大概一半的課程內容。跟大家對美國人的印象不同，我其實很害羞，也很害怕舉手提問，我甚至不太敢參與社交，所以當時朋友也很少。我開始想家，也變得有一點憂鬱。那時籃球是我唯一的紓壓方式。
但更不幸的是，我在打籃球時弄傷了我的前十字韌帶，做了兩次手術，需要一年半才能恢復。許多的負面情緒壓得我喘不過氣。我被困在人生的低谷，不知如何是好。我覺得我的中文不夠好，我也被診斷出失眠跟ADHD，另外，美國高中的數學太簡單了，來這邊不夠用。種種壓力讓我足不出戶，找不到自己的人生方向。後來，我向臺大心輔中心以及我的心理醫師尋求協助，然後我也開始跟系上有更多互動。有一位教授叫徐宏民跟我說，"Never give up"，雖然那時候我覺得這句話太過於簡化了我的問題，不過，在我仔細思考了一個禮拜之後，我下定決心，發誓不讓自己被這些事擊敗。我決定要克盡全力，認真做好每件事。這是我人生的轉捩點，我開始變得異常自律。當時廖世偉教授和洪士灝系主任帶我進入它們的研究室鑽研學術。這重燃了我對資訊工程的熱忱，提醒了我當初會愛上這個領域的原因。我開始研究人工智慧以及區塊鏈，也開始跟其他系上同學交朋友，一起成立臺大人工智慧應用社NTUAI。NTUAI現在是校內頗具規模的技術研究社團，致力於推廣人工智慧給任何對該領域有熱忱的學生。歡迎加入NTUAI，可以掃描我們的QR CODE。
最近，由於疫情的緣故，我已經一年半沒回美國了。但是沒關係，因為我已經找到了我第二個家。我很愛臺大，以及台灣的人事物。雖然我經歷了人生的低潮，但這裡的一切總是給我滿滿的祝福與協助。最後，我想送給大家「功夫熊貓」裡的一句台詞： "You just need to believe"。只要用樂觀的態度去面對困難，就有能力改變自己，甚至改變身旁所愛的人。就像阿波的父親說的，"心誠則靈，只要你相信，點石就能成金。根本沒有什麼秘笈。只有你。"謝謝大家。
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President, professors, and classmates, I'm very honored to be here. Thank you to NTU for giving me this opportunity. My name's Seth Austin Harding, and I'm from the D.C. metropolitan area. I'm going to tell a real story that's personal but that's relatable and what I see as the real me.
What motivated and guided me to take my undergraduate studies in Taiwan? When I was very young, I really loved watching kung fu movies, and when I was 10 years old, I went to the theater to watch "Kung Fu Panda". This became my favorite movie as I felt like the story of the main character Po was one to which I could very much relate. After watching this movie, I decided that I wanted to start learning kung fu, so I went to the United States Wushu Academy. At the time, I began hearing Mandarin on a daily basis, so when I was in high school, I decided to begin formally studying Chinese. It ended up being my Chinese teacher from Taipei who was my favorite teacher who taught my favorite class, so I decided I'd hang out in the Chinese classroom every day and practice lots. By the time graduation came around, I had attained the highest proficiency in Chinese among any non-native speaker in my school. My second favorite class was computer science, and I ended up attaining among the best coding skills in my school. After getting accepted to the school of my dreams -- National Taiwan University -- I felt honored, humbled, and excited; I could now spend time at among the world's finest universities studying Chinese and at the same time advancing my knowledge of computer science.
But when I look back at my freshman year, to be honest with you, I didn't know what I was doing. Despite having taken very many Chinese classes, when I went to the NTU lectures, I understood only about half of what the teachers were saying. Contrary to most people's impressions of an American, I was actually too shy to raise my hand, to ask questions, or to even meet with teachers after class, so I had very few friends at the time. I started to become homesick and depressed. At that time, I found that basketball was the only way I knew of relieving my stress. However, while playing basketball, I had torn my ACL and it would take two surgeries and a year and a half in time to fully recover. At this point, I felt caught between a rock and a hard place. In fact, this was the lowest point of my life, and I didn't know what to do. I felt like my Chinese wasn't good enough, I had been diagnosed with insomnia and ADHD, and I felt like the math taught in America was too simple to allow for me to keep up with my classmates. I was under immense pressure, and at this time, I lost any sense of purpose or direction. Later on, I went to seek help from NTU counseling, from my psychiatrist, and from my department. I reached out to Professor Winston Hsu from CSIE, and he told me this: "Never give up"; it was such an oversimplified way to approach such a complex series of problems, I had thought. However, I pondered these words intensely for one week, and by the end of that week, I had made a firm decision. This would NOT be another example of me giving up. I decided to go all out, to work diligently and passionately on all tasks at hand. This was the turning point of my life; I started to discipline myself to a very high degree. At this time, I met my then-to-become advisors Professor Shih-Wei Liao and Professor Shih-Hao Hung and entered their labs to begin research. Finally, the passion that I had for computer science that I had previously held in high school was kindled again, and I was finally reminded why I loved this field. I began my research life in blockchain and AI, and at the time I entered the lab, I also began creating NTUAI. NTUAI is now a large and highly successful NTU club that is dedicated to the research and public understanding of AI. Welcome one and all to join us; please scan our QR code here.
For a year and a half I haven't returned to America because of covid. But not to worry; I have found my second home, away from home. I love it here in NTU and I cherish all of the things I've had the privilege to experience in Taiwan. I've gone through the most difficult of struggles in my life here, but I've also had the most fortunate and blessed of experiences. To conclude, I'd like to quote a line from "Kung Fu Panda": "You just need to believe". As long as you are willing to adopt an optimistic attitude in facing challenges and hardships, you may become a positive force in changing the lives of those around you as well as your own life. It all depends on how you view it; just like what Po's father says, "there is no secret ingredient. It's just you." Thank you, everyone.
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https://www.facebook.com/NTUCommencement/posts/2718185771805180
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the father movie中文 在 [ 雷] Father 父親- 看板movie - 批踢踢實業坊 的美食出口停車場
FATHER父親
奧斯卡六項提名的<FATHER/父親>，主題講老人失智症，不同於一般電影是從客觀外在環境
去陳述病患與照顧者的生活，改編自同名舞台劇的本片，是從患者主觀內在角度出發，描
寫他們感知的真實，讓觀眾更能理解患者眼中的世界。
如果不是事先知道這是一部關於失智症的電影，其實感覺像恐怖驚悚電影，因為女兒跟女
婿的臉龐隨時都在改變、周遭環境轉瞬不同，怪異情形不斷發生，某些情節重複出現，不
禁讓人懷疑起自己是否正常。但事實就是不正常，因為已經失智了，對於時間、場地、人
物都無法正確判別，回憶全部混在一起。
電影是從安東尼扮演的父親視野出發，由於患病已經時序混換，然而導演卻透過剪接留下
線索，讓觀眾可以重新拼貼故事情節。從大女兒安妮個人的鏡頭可以發現，時間的順序應
該是這樣的：父親開始發病、接到女兒家中、與女婿起口角導致離婚、終於下定決心打電
話約看醫生、小女兒意外過世、女兒決定搬到巴黎將父親送到養老院、返回養老院探望父
親。然而電影中，時序卻是錯亂的，所以會出現看起來前後矛盾的對話。剛接到女兒家中
的日子因為是發病初期，還能留下比較深刻的記憶所以不斷重複出現。至於小女兒意外過
世明明應該是嚴重的衝擊事件，卻由於病後一段時間後才發生的事件，反而無法在病人腦
中留下深刻記憶，只有片羽吉光偶然想起、沒有辦法被當成真實。
劇作中很多細節具體地表現失智症的特徵：缺乏病識感、被害妄想、攻擊性、懷疑、健忘
、自私、失能、恐懼、憤怒....等等，對周遭人造成眾多困擾。同時也展現周遭親屬對於
疾病的看法，總有人如女婿般認為一切都是蓄意作假的，確實在發病初期患者大部分時間
都還能正常進行社交行為與對話，所以很難相信真的是疾病導致各種失序行為，反而會懷
疑是故意要毀掉周遭人們的生活。親近家人又由於不願面對現實，因此錯失早期治療、延
緩惡化的機會。
理性認識到疾病病徵表現是容易的，但是日常生活與病人接觸還是很難接受，透過<父親F
ATHER>看見病患的感知世界，似乎比較能夠產生同理心，因為那些與我們存在的現實世界
割裂、各種毫無理由的混亂，其實是病人眼中所見的唯一真實，並且是不可懷疑的。既然
這是一種持續退化無法復原的疾病，我們又怎能期待他們重回現實世界？他們早已經被時
間遠遠拋在後頭、遺失眾多持續發生的細節，只能記得好久好久以前已經烙在心底的那些
事，其他都只如浮雲蒼狗，什麼也沒留下。
電影三十分鐘時有個片段很震撼，大女兒在幻想中試圖把父親掐死、讓彼此解脫，這其實
是千百次出現在照顧者腦中的片段。有人照顧失智長輩到後來變成憂鬱症成天想自殺，進
了精神病院治療三個月。
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