I have been feeling pretty ‘meh’ myself lately.
I couldn’t help it but started to compare myself with the achievements of my peers this year. Instagram hasn’t been a very good place for me recently, especially this year. Too much ‘fake positivity’ and too much emphasis on promoting ‘perfect’ lifestyles.
It made me feel inadequate.
It made me feel like I am not doing enough this year. I’m not sure if I am the only one that feels this, but there is a constant competition of trying to one-up one another: since X, Y and Z all got this, so it's the trend now and I will have to get it too.
It made me feel like everyone else is perfect - except me.
My IG feed brainwashes me that life around me is perfect. Everyone is smiling, everyone is constantly eating fancy desserts, everyone is on a shopping spree. Of course I know it's staged, guys, I KNOW it’s not reality.
But does it affect me? Yes.
Because we don’t really have control over what we are seeing, and quite often, we cannot help but get affected by images that purport to be the reality even if we do know as a fact they do not.
I’ve really cut down my IG app usage these couple of months when I realised that I constantly felt worse after scrolling around each time. Still, every time I open the app, I’m presented with an endless feed of my friends or acquaintances doing incredible things, having a wonderful time, without me.
There is nothing I could do with IG, but I’m pretty sure I would be able to get out of this loop soon. I just need to start focusing on myself as we all have our different paths and journeys in our lives.
For a start, it's time for me to get back to directing my energy and creativity to more videos and productions. Something more fulfilling than just a moment’s beauty.
Stay tuned to my YouTube channel.
Will be uploading weekly videos or vlogs, so do let me know what you’d like to watch. 🤍
