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【我和師父的對話：談談新加坡】
CONVERSATIONS ABOUT SINGAPORE (English writing below)

「新加坡的國運，會越來越多問題。」

大約三年多前，師父跟我說了這句話，也正是李光耀先生過世了之後。

我問師父爲何如此說。

師父答：「從玄學的角度來說，一個國家能夠興旺，必定是因爲領導人或某個很重要人物的八字與這國家的八字匹配，互補彼此的運。有時候，也是因為有某個重要人物，他的存在能夠鎮住這個國家，讓一切不好的事情不會發生，一些想欺負新加坡的人會知難而退。

所以新加坡這個彈丸之地，什麼都沒有，才能做得起來，還做得比鄰國還出色。而當這人物不在了，又沒有另一個旗鼓相當的人取代，那邪氣就能入侵，這個國家便開始走歹運。」

「其二，我們新加坡為了繁榮，到處都在挖洞，嚴重影響了地氣，龍氣受傷了，而且屋子越建越差。妳跟我去看風水的公寓，它們的風水還比政府組屋的更糟糕。

現代人追求表面的美，在自己的家裡東敲西打，破壞了整個格局，所以妳自己從妳的客人那裡也知道，很多新加坡人外表很風光，在臉書上總是說去哪裡吃，哪裡玩，今天買了什麼，和家人一起做什麼。我告訴妳，很多是騙人的，沒有錢的，根本談不上home sweet home。

很多家庭欠債的，要離婚的，孩子不聽話不會讀書，父母得看小孩的臉色做人，家庭吵架、婚外情，家人重病、心理病的、精神病的、小孩子憂鬱症的，脾氣不好、生意失敗的，事業不振， 很多問題， 就是因為家裡外在內在的風水都不好。」

「第三，我們新加坡不應該有賭場的。這是造了很大的業，會毀了很多人和家庭。妳看，有一個女的打給我，以前是做警察的，結果一直去賭場，被警隊開除了。有賭的地方，就有鬼，必有邪氣。沾到這個邪氣的人，思維就會被這些鬼眾操控，他要你去賭場，你就會一直去，明明知道不好，不可以，卻還是去。這是為什麼滨海湾金沙開幕後，妳問我要不要去那裡用餐看看，我跟妳說那不是修行人去的地方。妳也不要去。」

我趕緊搖搖頭，擺擺手。

「沒有沒有，師父，我沒有要去。我曾經為了買一件衣服，去過一次，都沒進到賭場，我就跟騰慶說，我以後不要再去了。那裡的氣真的很不好，我一踏進去，頭就暈了，那外表很氣派，但裡頭就是很陰的感覺，祇是普通人看不出而已。」

「可是，師父，您曾經說過，我們新加坡的風水也主，暗地裡撈偏門幹犯法的勾當的其實很多，不輸給馬國。那有沒有賭場，為什麼會影響那麽大？」

「所以我說妳沒有把我教妳的東西好好學。撈偏門，畢竟是暗的，是偷偷摸摸進行的，是不見得光的。可是你把它合法化，白熱化了，這些邪氣的破壞力量就會壯大了。我們人，不能為了繁榮，要賺更多的錢，就不顧道德，這是會短率而失敗的。」

記得，大約五六年前，我先生載著師父經過福康寧。師父看著窗外的工地，好奇的問：「他們在挖什麼？」

「師父，政府要建地鐵，所以在挖地道。」

當時，師父嘆息：「挖太深了。這條龍這樣挖下去，我們新加坡會種族失和，國人反政府，國運衰落等等的問題。」

後來得知福康寧地鐵站因高難度的隧道挖掘，而得到年度國際隧道工程奖。可見，裡頭挖的多複雜，那受傷的龍氣，是否有高人指點去補全呢？要不然，依然是得不償失的。

那天走過盛港醫院，想到過去一年進出不同的醫院探病，心中有些許唏噓。

醫院越多，代表我們國人的病業越重。根本上師，聖尊蓮生活佛，曾講過醫院就是人間的地獄：

「在醫院裡，醫生開你的腦，挖你的眼，開腦、挖眼、開心，心、肝、脾、肺、腎，統統都要開刀。其實醫院就是地獄道。你說生病的人，哪一個不苦？生病的人都是在受苦，這些苦，雖然差地獄很遠，但是離地獄也不近。生病是很痛苦的，當你生病的時候，躺在醫院任人宰割。其實多開一家醫院，就像多開一個地獄。像開刀的醫生，手上拿著刀的，都是地獄裡面的獄卒。真的！醫院裡面就像地獄一樣，甚麼都可以動，像是將你的腳鋸掉，將你的手鋸掉，將你的眼睛挖出來的，將你的腦打開的，將你的腸子整個拖出來的，剪掉腸子的，甚至將你的胃割掉，我們稱這些為「邊地」，屬於不是正式的地獄，是邊上的地獄。

所以不要講沒有報應。人生病，因為業障重，所以進到醫院任人宰割，像呼吸困難，醫生就將你氣切，就是將你的喉嚨打開，接一個管子，吃東西就從管子進去，呼吸也用管子，全身都是插管，那都是屬於地獄道。」

(20141130聖尊蓮生活佛盧勝彥於甘露精舍瑜伽焰口法會後開示)

大醫院是大地獄，小醫院是小地獄。去過醫院的都知道，那裡沒什麼好磁場可言。我看很多新的醫院，裡面的風水也一樣讓人頭痛。因此無論是醫生醫錯人，醫死人，護士疏忽，沒有及時照顧病人，藥房開錯藥等等，這些問題都只會層出不窮。家裡有病人住院的朋友們，請打起十二分精神，要明白醫生開的藥方，要了解護士在做什麼。

環境風水不好，人的心會不正，運也會不順，身體和心靈健康的問題也會越來越多。

無奈有些國人受西方文化的薰陶久了，就盲目的覺得學華文不重要，也「順便」覺得風水是迷信。問他們研究了什麼，他們又咦咦啊啊的答不出。不要那麽急促，不要迷著不信。很多東西要深入研究，你就會明白，風水是比科學還科學，根本就不是迷信。

2019己亥年，對新加坡而言，是個很多內外衝突的一年，新加坡的國運會生病。

有的人會選擇把所有責任推給政府去擔當。我固然明白一切有其因，就必有其果。但國家有難，匹夫有責。

政府做不做得到也好，我們身為這國家的孩子，都應該去互相幫忙。批評，如果不能有實在的結果出來改善問題，那這種批評也不祇過是宣洩自心的不平不滿。大家都想多賺些錢，所以別忘了這句話「和氣生財」。

報答國恩，會有種恩德，能夠讓我們的纏身靈離開，可以化災化難。而引導自己的孩子報國恩，

有妥當的起因，就不會有悲哀的後果，而是有喜慶的結局。

因此大家都要製造良因，自然就會有良果。切勿造五惡：殺生、偷盜、犯淫、妄語、飲酒吸毒。你正當的行為，是有能力帶動你身邊的人，也當然能改善自己的家運。累積功德，就是為了需要時，能夠用這「儲備金」過關斬將。

今年拜太歲時，請為新加坡也點盞光明燈。祈禱時，也請為新加坡祈福，等等。

玳瑚師父 Master Dai Hu 正月初八晚上，會舉辦一年一度的拜天公活動。他過去兩年都帶領著一些國人一起為自己的家庭和國家祈福。屆時，如果您有心想學習，請關注師父的臉書專頁。

在竹腳婦幼醫院時，聽到有位三十來歲的婦女說，她是來動手術，拿掉子宮的。我的心裡，頓時為她難過。

願大家都能有好德行、好風水、好運氣。

希望進醫院的人，都能夠平平安安的出院。

也希望去受軍訓的兒子們，都能平平安安回家。南無阿彌陀佛。

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"There will be more and more problems, in Singapore's fortune outlook."

About three years ago, Shifu told me this. It was not long after Mr Lee Kuan Yew's death.

I asked Shifu why he said so.

Shifu replied, "From a Chinese Metaphysics point of view, when a country is prosperous, it is linked to the Bazi compatibility of the leader, and/or other important people. The Bazi can complement the Bazi of the country. Sometimes, because there is this important figure, whose presence can hold a country together and subjugate disasters from happening and people who wish to bully Singapore will back off."

"So it was possible for Singapore, such a small country of no natural resources, to build something up, and outperform its neighbouring countries. And when this person is no longer around, with no suitable replacement, then vile forces will pervade and the country will start to enter a cycle of poor luck."

"Secondly, in the name of more prosperity, Singapore is digging holes everywhere. This will severely damage the vitality force in the land, injuring the dragon qi. Moreover, the housing nowadays are poorly built, from a Feng Shui viewpoint. When you followed me on my Feng Shui audits at condos, you saw that their internal Feng Shui were even worse than HDB."

"People nowadays are only going for beauty. So they do not think twice when they hack the walls in their homes, destroying the whole structure. You see it in your clients too. Many Singaporeans only look good on the outside, posting about where they dine, where they go to have fun, what they bought, what they did with their families. Let me tell you this, many are lying. Many are having money problems. There is no home sweet home to speak of."

"Many families are in debt, facing divorce, have children who are disobedient and unwilling to study. Parents have to behave accordingly to the moods of their children. There are domestic quarrels and extramarital affairs. There are family members who are gravely ill, have psychological problems, mental issues and even kids have depression. Tempers are short, businesses do not perform well, careers are stagnant and many other problems, are caused by the poor external and internal Feng Shui."

"Thirdly, Singapore should not have casinos. This planted a seed of grave karma and will destroy many people and families. You see, there was a lady who called me. She used to work in the police, but she ended up visiting the casino too often and was fired by the police force. When there is gambling, there will be ghosts around, and vile energies will definitely be present. Anyone who gets stained by these energies will be mentally controlled by the ghosts. When the ghost wants you to visit the casino, you will surely go, despite knowing that it is not a good thing to do, nor is it advisable. This is why when you asked if I wished to dine at Marina Bay Sands during its opening, I told you that wasn't a place for spiritual cultivators to go. You shouldn't go."

I hastily shook my head and waved my hands.

"No, never, Shifu, I've no intention of going. I once went there to buy a piece of clothing. I didn't even stepped into the casino and I told Teng Qing, I wouldn't want to go there again. The energies there aren't great. My head spun as I stepped into the building. It looked impressive on the outside, but inside, the energies are very yin. Just that ordinary people aren't able to tell."

"But Shifu, you once said, the Feng Shui of Singapore also indicates that there are many illegal doings and businesses going on, comparable to that of Malaysia. So whether there are casinos or not, why will there be such an impact?"

"That's why I say, you never learnt properly what I taught you. Illegal activities are done secretly, in the dark and it can't be seen. But once you legalised it, as it surfaces to the top, the devastating effects of the vile energies will be even stronger. We humans cannot sacrifice morals for the sake of more prosperity and money. This will lead to failure due to shortsightedness."

I recalled, 5 to 6 years ago, the husband was ferrying Shifu in his car and drove past Fort Canning Hill. Shifu looked outside the window and curiously asked, "What are they digging?"

The husband replied, "Shifu, the government is building a MRT station, so they are digging the tunnel."

At that time, Shifu sighed, "They are digging too deep. When they keep digging into this dragon, we Singapore are going to have racial disharmony, anti-government problems and decline in the country's fortunes and many other problems."

Later on, I learnt that Fort Canning MRT Station won the Top Tunnelling Project of the Year at an international ceremony, because of the high difficulty level in the tunnelling feat. The excavation and tunnelling must be really deep and complicated. I wonder if there is any master that gave them pointers to repair the damaged dragon qi? Otherwise, the loss will outweigh the gain.

That day, when I walked past Sengkang General Hospital, I was reminded of my various hospital trips to visit family and friends, and couldn't helped but sighed.

The more hospitals there are, it means the sickness karma of our countrymen are getting more serious. My Root Guru, His Holiness Living Buddha Lian Sheng, once expounded that hospitals are hell in this mortal world:

"In hospitals, the doctors will open up your brain and dig your eyes. They open up your heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys. All these parts need to be operated. Actually, the hospital is the realm of Hell. Look at the people who are ill, who isn't suffering? A sick person is suffering. These sufferings, while very far away from that in the Hell, but aren't that far either. It is painful to be sick. When you are sick, you lie in the hospital and are at the whim of the doctor to be operated on. Actually when a hospital opens, it is like opening another Hell. The surgeon who holds the surgery knife in his hand is like the hell guard. Really!

The inside of the hospital is just like Hell. Everything can be operated on, like amputating your leg, amputate your hand, digging out your eyes, opening up your brain, dragging out the whole of your intestines, cutting away your intestines, and even cutting away your stomach. We called this borderland. Not the real Hell, but the borderland of Hell.

So don't say there isn't retribution. A person falls sick, because his karmic obstacles are severe. So he gets hospitalised and is up to the doctor to slaughter. For example, for breathing difficulties, the doctor will perform tracheotomy. He open up your throat and connect a tube. You will consume your food through the tube and also breathe through it. Your whole body is connected with tubes. That is the realm of Hell."

(20141130 His Holiness Living Buddha Lian Sheng Sheng-yen Lu Dharma discourse after Preta-dana at 甘露精舍)

A big hospital is a big Hell. A small hospital is a small Hell. Anyone who has been to hospitals knows that there isn't any great energies to speak about. I have visited several new hospitals and the Feng Shui inside is a headache. Hence cases of doctor misdiagnosis, mistreatment that cause death, negligence by nurses, lack of timely patient care, wrong medicine prescribed by pharmacies etc, will only continue to happen and at an increasing rate. So to friends who have hospitalised family, please be conscious and ask the right questions. Understand what the doctor prescribed and what the nurses are doing.

When the environmental Feng Shui is bad, man's heart will also go wayward and his luck will roll downhill. Problems in the physical body and heart will get more and more fanciful.

Unfortunately, some of us are over-influenced by the Western culture. They think that learning Chinese isn't important and conveniently dismissed Feng Shui as superstition. When I asked what research they had done to come to this conclusion, they usually stammer and can't answer me logically.

My advice: don't be impatient. Don't be eager to disbelieve. When your thinking is not supported by genuine in-depth research, you are superstitious. Many things in life are worth studying. When you learn this in-depth, you will realise that Feng Shui is more scientific than science, far away from what you think old wives' tale are made up of.

2019 the year of the Earth Pig is not a good year for Singapore. There will be many internal and external conflicts. Our country will fall sick, with its luck declining.

Some people chose to point their fingers at the government. I understand for every cause, there will be an effect. However, the rise and fall of our nation concerns all of us.

Whether the government does a good job or not, as the children of our country, we should all lend a helping hand to fellow countrymen. If criticism does not lead to a viable result to improve the problem, then it is just an expression of the displeasure inside the person.

To repay the debt of gratitude to our country generates merits for ourselves. These merits can drive away our karmic creditors and resolve the disasters and obstacles we face. We are also leading by example to our children what it means to repay the debt of gratitude to our country.

When the seed of causation is proper, there will be no fruits of sorrow, but instead, fruits of joy and celebrations.

So all of us should strive to create positive seeds of causation, and that will naturally reap us positive fruits. Don't commit the five evils of killing, stealing, sexual misconduct, lying and consumption of intoxicants like alcohol and drugs. Your proper conduct has the ability to help the people around you and of course, improve your family fortunes. Accumulating merits is critical, as these reserves will always come in handy to help us during our emergency times.

When you pray to the Tai Sui this year, please light a Lamp of Illumination for Singapore too. When you pray, please also pray for the good fortune of Singapore etc.

Every year on the night of the 8th day of the 1st Lunar Month, 玳瑚師父 Master Dai Hu will conduct a prayer ceremony to pay homage to the Supreme Jade Emperor. In the past two years, he had led other like-minded participants to pray for blessings for themselves and our nation. If you are keen to learn, do follow Shifu's FB page for notifications.

When I was at the KK hospital, I overheard a lady, probably in her 30s, that she was here for an operation to remove her entire womb. Momentarily, I felt sad for her.

I hope for everyone to have good moral conduct, great Feng Shui and good fortune.

May everyone who is hospitalised get to go home safely and healthily.

May all the sons of Singapore who go for army training, also return home safely and in one piece. Namo Amitabha.

Akhirnya Mengandung

Assalamualaikum admin. Tq kalau sudi publishkan. Harap berguna untuk pembaca. Sikit pengenalan, aku maria ( bukannnamansebenar) Umur masuk 3 series. Kawen hampir 5 tahun. Alhamdulillah akhirnya tahun ni Allah bagi rezeki untuk mengandung. Kawan kawan dan family semua teruja. Ramai juga yang tanya tips. Makan apa, buat apa. Jadi saya share sini. Semoga bermanfaat.

Masa sebelum dapat zuriat, kami suami isteri antara manusia yang trauma nak balik kampung. Tengok muka orang pon dah tahu depa nak tanya apa. Mak mertua pon sampai biru muka nak menjawab. Sebab kebanyakkan yng bertanya ni sedara sebelah suami. Tapi mak mertua, dari kami kawen sampai sekarang, sentiasa backup aku. Tq mak. Sayang mak. Mak aku? Mak aku rilek je. Haha. Nak cakap apa je. Lagi mental bila adik yang baru kawen, sepupu sepapat kawen je terus dapat baby. Lepas tu muka masing masing ada yang bangga ada yang serba salah. Bangga sebab dapat baby awal dari aku, serba salah sebab takut aku terasa. Awal awal dulu selalu jadi hindustan. Lari lari menangis dalam bilik. Tapi sekarang dah kental. Rilek je. Di bawah ni antara benda yang aku buat. Aku rasa benda ni la yang menyebabkan aku dapat rezeki ni.

1. Ubah perangai.
Aku jenis tak baik sangat. pemalas, suami suruh buat air pon aku malas, mulut lepas, suka kutuk dan mengumpat orang, sembahyang pon akhir waktu. Sehingga la aku terbaca artikel dan aku dengar ceramah. Ustazah tu cskap macam mana Allah nak bagi rezeki kalau diri kita sendiri tak berapa betul. Sembahyang tak. Agama lintang pukang. Pemalas. Rumah macam tongkang pecah. Bakal baby pon rasa tak sanggup nak dapat ibu yang macam tu. Lagi ayat dia, kalau kita tak sampai tahap solat tahajud atau menangis bila doa pada Allah, maksudnya kita ni tak sampai tahap betul betul nak. Jadi senyap senyap aku ubah diri. Susah wei nak berubah. Tahan mulut ni dari mengumpat, kalau nampak orang tak pandai parking, nak parking pon sampai 70jam, aku tahan dalam hati jangan kutuk orang tu. Kalau pekerja kedai slow buat kerja, aku tahan mulut dan hati jangan cakap apa apa. Aku nampak perempuan gedik gedik depan aku ketawa macam langsuir, aku tahan diri tak cakap apa apa. Aku nampak lelaki hensem dengan perempuan tak lawa, aku tak cakap apa. Aku tahan. Aku tahan. Aku tahan. Haha. the struggle is real bagi orang macam aku. Mohon jangan kecam. Aku tak perfect pon tapi suka buat gaya macam perfect sangat kahkah. Aku sekarang more to bersangka baik. Cakap baik baik pasal orang. Contoh kalau colleague aku datang cakap ” ko tau tak si gayah tu hari hari mc..tapi tengok status fb elok plak pegi shopping” aku jawab ” mm maybe tu yang doktor suruh dia buat” kahkah. Atau ” si mail tu baru je tunang tapi dah putus. Ko rasa kenapa?” Nampak pancingan untuk mengumpat. Tapi aku jawab ” takpe la bukan jodoh dia” haha. Ofismate pon malas jadi malas nak mengumpat bila aku asyik cakap macam tu je. Ok sambung

2. Paksa diri tolong orang
Biasa aku la paling malas nak tolong orang. Aku buat hal sendiri je. Tapi aku ubah. Kalau nampak makcik makcik takut takut nak cross jalan, aku tolong pimpin kan. Nampak pakcik pakcik konfius tengok date roti, aku tolong tengokkan. Nampak budak budak takde duit beli tiket lrt, aku tolong bayar kan. Nampak kedai full tapi ada yang tercegat lama, aku laju laju habiskan makan dan bagi seat pada dorang. Nampak makcik beratur beli goreng pisang, aku bagi turn aku pada dia. Tolong buka kan pintu, tolong angkatkan barang orang. Simple je. Tapi rasa macam tenang jiwa.

3. Sedekah.
Sedekah tak banyak pon. Kadang lepas ambil duit di bank, tengok ada makcik cleaner, aku salam dan selit duit. Nampak pakcik makan dengan cucu, aku bayarkan. Selisih dengan budak sekolah, aku bagi seringgit dua. Kalau makan di kedai, ada balance dua tiga ringgit, aku halalkan. Hujung bulan kalaunada rezeki lebih, aku buat makan makan. Atau kalau ada birthday ofismate, celebrate je dengan kek paling kecil ikut kemampuan aku time tu. Atau bagi hadiah contoh tudung yang beli di muaz. Haha. Aku tak kaya. Tapi nak cuba gembirakan orsng. Atau kalau nampak ofismate yang makin kurus, hari hari tak makan, aku sekali sekala belanja dia makan. Tapi jangan tiap hari, nanti aku plak yang tak makan. Setiap kali pegi masjid, WAJIB bagi yang paling besar dalam purse. Paksa suami buat macam tu juga. Sampai hari tu kami ada 50 je tapi aku bagi juga. Tak niat pon dalam hati semoga Allah bagi rezeki lain berganda ganda. Tapi niat, ya allah aku sedekah ikhlas kerana mu dan aku yakin Engkau menjaga kami seperti mana semut yakin dengan Engkau akan menjaga mereka. Aku buat macam tu sebab ada ustaz bagitau, buat apa apa kena ikhlas dan bukan harapkan balasan dari Allah. Contoh macam ko tolong perempuan dengan harapan dia sudi jadi awek kau. Confirm perempuan tu menyampah. Anggap la macam tu. Korang faham ke? Haha. Kalau tak faham, pandai pandailah.

4. Doa
aku amalkan doa Rabbana hab lana min azwajina wa dzurriyyatina qurrata a’yunin waj-’alna lil-muttaqîna imama.
Artinya, “Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkan kepada kami, pasangan kami dan keturunan kami sebagai penyejuk hati kami, dan jadikan kami pemimpin bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa”. (QS. Al-Furqan: 74). cuba hayati doa ni sampai menangis nangis. Lain rasa dia. Lain. Korang cuba lah. Hari hari aku doa yang ini. Lepas solat dan kalau saja saja duduk, aku baca doa ni. Ustazah pesan, setiap kali doa, ko kena menangis. Paksa diri tu menangis. Lepas tu paksa mak ayah suami adik beradik dan siapa siapa je yang kau jumpa, untuk doakan kau. Doa orang pada kita antara doa mustajab. Betul dah aku rasa. Kalau silap, ampunkan daku. Kau doa pada Allah, kau nak zuriat kenapa? Niat elok elok. Nak ada zuriat sebab nak jadikan dia khalifah Allah. Pejuang agama. Yang mampu sumbang pahala pada kita dan keturunan. Nak zuriat sebab nak sama sama bina keluarga islami. Nak eratkan hubungan suami isteri. Nak peneman dan semangat untuk lebih dekat dengan Allah. Niat kena betul. Kalau ada terlintas dalam hati kau, nak zuriat sebab nak pakaikan baju lawa lawa, nak bertanding fengan orang, istighfar terus. Korang yang ttc macam aku ni kena set dalam kepala. Kita ni special kes, jadi kita kena buat betul betul.

5. Dekatkan diri dengan agama.
Tak perlu sampai jadi ustazah.. tapi hari hari kena paksa diri tu mengaji dan baca tafsir, paksa diri solat awal, paksa diri berdoa dan berzikir lepas solat. Paksa diri dan suami solat berjemaah. Jaga solat biar solat kita berkualiti. aku jenis mekap. Kalau nak solat, aku ambil je wudhuk tak basuh dulu mekap aku. Disitu air wudhuk bukan sah pon. solat aku? Lagi la tak sah. Aku terbayang solat yang tak berkualiti ni di campak ke muka macam kain buruk. Aku sekarang, pencuci muka sentiasa ada dalam beg. Senang. Lepas ni solat tanpa was was. Semoga Allah redha.

Rasa sampai sini je dulu. Point dia, nak sesuatu dari Allah, kena berbaik dengan Allah. Bergantung pada Allah 100%..kalau orang kata, bidan ni bagus, bidan ni hebat, jamu ni boleh bagi zuriat, jamu ni gitu gini. Istighfar dalam hati. Cakap pada diri, ya Allah aku hanya bergantung pada engkau bukan pada jamu dan bidan. Tapi dalam masa yang sama kita kena usaha juga. Berurut. Jumpa doktor. Jaga makan. Cuma kena sentiasa ingatkan diri, Allah yang berkuasa. Bila makan jamu, bila jumpa doktor bila jumpa bidan, betulkan dalam hati, ya Allah Engkau yang maha pemberi maha penyayang maha mengetahu maha berkuasa. Bukan mereka. Aku dok ulang ulang point sama. Supaya korang faham kebergantungan pada Allah itu penting. Ok gais. Semoga bermanfaat. Jangan sedih sedih. Perempuan selagi ada rahim, selagi itu ada chance untuk mengandung. Kalau takde rahim pon, kalau Allah nak bagi, kau siapa nak menafikan. Be positif, be kind, be sweet. Aku doakan korang yang tengah menunggu zuriat, diberikan rezeki zuriat. Aminnya rabbal.

Thanks

– Maria

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Finally pregnant

Peace be upon you admin. Thank you if you are willing to do it. Please be useful for readers. A Little Introduction, I'm Maria (Bukannnamansebenar) age in 3 Series. Married for almost 5 years. Alhamdulillah finally this year Allah gives sustenance to get pregnant. Friends and family are all excited. Many people ask for tips. Eat what, what are you doing. So I'm sharing here. Hopefully it will be useful.

The time before we get children, we are husband and wife among humans who are traumatized to go back to hometown. Look at other people's faces already know what they want to ask. Mother-in-law also reaches blue face to answer. Because most people ask this is the relatives beside the husband. But Mother-in-law, from us getting married until now, always backup me. Thank you, mom. Love you mom. My Mom? My mom is just relaxed. Haha. I want to say anything. More mental when a sibling who just got married, cousins get married and get a baby. After that there are people who are proud to have something wrong. Proud to have a baby early from me, it's all wrong because I'm scared of it. Early in the beginning, always became hindustan. Ran away crying in the room. But now it's strong. Just relax. Below is some of the things I do. I think this is what makes me get this sustenance.

1. Change your attitude.
I'm kind of not very good. Lazy, husband told me to make water pon I'm lazy, mouth off, like to curse and curse people, pray for the end of time. So I read the article and I heard the lecture. What kind of ustazah is God for sustenance if we are not true. Prayer is not. The religion of latitude pukang. Lazy. House like barge broke. I will be a baby I can't afford that kind of mother. Again, if we do not reach the stage of tahajjud prayer or cry if we pray to Allah, it means we will not arrive at the right stage. So quiet I change myself. It's hard to change. Hold this mouth from cursing, if people are not good at parking, nak parking until 70 hours, I hold it in my heart don't curse that person. If the shop worker is slow for work, I hold my mouth and heart don't say anything. I look like a girl gedik gedik in front of me laughing like a langsuir, I can't say anything. I see a hensem man with a woman not lawa, I don't say anything. I hold it. I hold it. I hold it. Haha. the struggle is real for people like me. Please don't slams. I'm not perfect but I like to make a perfect style. I am now more to think good. Say good people's article. Example if my colleague came to say " why do you know that's the day of mc day.. but look at fb status nice plaque go shopping " I answer " mm maybe that's what the doctor told him to make " kahkah. Or " the mail is just tunang but already broke up. Why do you think?" Looks like fishing for cursing. But I replied "takpe la not her mate" haha. Ofismate pon lazy to be lazy to curse if I'm fun to say that. Ok connect

2. Self Force help people
It's normal that I'm the most lazy to help people. I only do my own things. But I changed. If you see aunt, I'm afraid to be afraid to cross the road, I'll help you to lead it. See Uncle Uncle Konfius looking at the bread date, I help watch it. See kids who don't have money to Buy LRT tickets, I'll help you pay. Looks like the shop is full but there are some old caught, I quickly finish eating and give them a seat. Saw Aunt line up buying banana fritters, I gave her my turn. Please open the door, please raised other people's things. It's simple. But the soul feels calm.

3. Charity.
There's not much charity. Sometimes after taking money at the bank, see if there's Aunt Cleaner, I'm greeting and putting in money. Saw Uncle eating with the grandson, I paid. Difference with the school boy, I'll give you a second dollar. If you eat in the shop, there will be a balance of two three ringgit, I will make it. At the end of the month, I have more provisions, I make a meal. Or if there's a birthday blemishes, just celebrate with the smallest cake according to my ability at that time. Or give an example of the hijab that bought at muaz. Haha. I'm not rich. But want to try to make the orsng happy. Or if you see a blemishes that is getting thinner, don't eat every day, I'll treat him to eat once in a while. But not everyday, I'll be the one who doesn't eat. Every time I go to the mosque, it is compulsory to give the biggest in the purse. Forced the husband to do that too. Until that day we only had 50 but I gave it too. No intention in my heart may Allah give other provisions double. But intention, oh god, I am a sincere charity because of you and I am sure that you take care of us as the ants are confident in you will take care of them. I do that because there is a ustaz telling me, do whatever you have to be sincere and not expect a reply from Allah. An example like you help a woman with hope she is willing to be your girl. Confirmed that the woman is fed up. Think of it like that. Do you guys understand? Haha. If you don't understand, you'll be good at it.

4. Prayers
May God help us from our parents and our children, we are the one who is the one who is the one.
It means, "our Lord, grant us, our partners and our offspring as the cooler of our hearts, and make us a leader for the righteous". (QS. Al-Furqan: 74). Try to appreciate this prayer until crying. He feels different. Different. You guys try it. Every day I pray for this. After praying and if i just sit down, I'll read this prayer. Ustazah orders, every time you pray, you have to cry. Force yourself to cry. Then force your parents and siblings and whoever you meet, to pray for you. People's prayers to us are among the bleaching prayers. I feel it right. If it's wrong, forgive me. You pray to Allah, why do you want your child? Good intentions. Want to have a child because he wants to make him the khalifah of Allah. Religious Fighter. Those who are able to donate reward to us and offspring. Want a child because you want to build an Islamic family together. Want to tighten the relationship of husband and wife. Want a companion and spirit to be closer to Allah. The intention is to be right. If it comes to your heart, you want a child because you want to wear beautiful clothes, you want to compete with other people, keep istighfar. Those of you who are ttc like me have to set in the head. We are a special case, so we have to do it right.

5. Get close to religion.
You don't have to be ustazah.. but every day you have to force yourself to read and read the interpretation, force yourself to pray early, force yourself to pray and pray after praying. Force yourself and husband to pray together. Take care of your prayers so that our prayers are quality. I'm the type of makeup. If you want to pray, I'll just take it and don't wash my makeup first. There is no legal water there. My prayers? It's not valid anymore. I imagine this non-quality prayer was thrown into the face like a bad cloth. Me now, the face wash is always in the bag. Happy. After this praying without being. May Allah accept it.

I feel like I've been here before. The point is, if you want something from Allah, you must be kind to Allah. Depends on God 100 %.. If people say, this midwife is good, this midwife is great, this jamu can be given a child, this jamu is like this. Istighfar in the heart. Talk to yourself, oh god i only depend on you not on jamu and midwife. But at the same time we have to work too. Tandem. See the doctor. Take care of your food. Just have to remind yourself, God is powerful. When you eat jamu, when you see a doctor when you meet a midwife, correct it in your heart, oh god, you are the Almighty, the most merciful, the most powerful. Not them. I repeat the same point. So that you can understand what is important to Allah is important. Ok guys. Hopefully it will be useful. Don't be sad sad. Women as long as there is a womb, as long as there is a chance to get pregnant. If there is no uterus, if Allah wants to give it, who will deny it. Be positive, be kind, be sweet. I pray for those of you who are waiting for their children, given the sustenance of their children. Aminnya of the Lord.

Thanks

- Maria

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我們的女兒張恩臨在100年5月29日的凌晨出生。不知道為什麼他那麼急得要出來，但是他出生的時候只有25週+1天。出生的時候只有654公克，非常非常小且非常軟弱。我從來不會忘記我看到我女兒的第一眼時的驚嚇；她那時全身插管貼線，好像一個科學實驗。她那時候真的是皮包骨，而我真的不敢動她，因為害怕不小心會傷到她。那天晚上，醫生就跟我說他真的不知道我女兒能不能活過那個禮拜，那個消息對我們來講是非常大的打擊，因為我們已經期待這個小天使的來臨六個月了。但那時候我們無能為力，只能禱告並相信中國醫藥學院新生兒加護病房裡的所有護士醫生們。接下來的四個半月我們本來應該在媽媽懷裡長大的女兒，卻在一個保溫箱𥚃慢慢長大。我們真的很感恩：我們女兒出生在醫療發達進歩的台灣，有先進的藥物和醫療器材，及愛心盡職的醫生護士團隊來搶救、醫治、幫助她維持她的生命。如果不是靠這些進步的醫療器材設備，真的不知道我們女兒今天還會不會跟我們在一起。年輕的父母真的非常需要台灣非常非常棒的健保的補助。我們女兒在醫院𥚃的保温箱躺了4個半月，出院時結帳是超過新台幣一百萬。如果沒有保險，我們一定付不起我們女兒當初得到的醫療和照顧。很難想像假如當初我們必須在負債及終結女兒生命二者間作選擇，會是怎樣的心痛歷程。還好感謝政府德政，我們當初不必做這樣的選擇，而今天我們的女兒是非常健康可愛的四歲小女孩。她非常聰明而帶給周遭的親朋好友很多喜樂。而我綐是喜歡說台灣的健保，幫助了許多像我們類似狀況的早產兒及其家庭，我們滿心感恩。所以我們很誠懇的希望未來的父母也是能夠享受我們當初享受到的醫療補助。

當一個孩子在那麼緊急的狀況下出生，父母親必須做很多不一樣的選擇和決定。在沒有準備下要做這麼多決定是非常有壓力的一件事。要明白醫生在形容早產兒的狀況，又要決定他們願意讓醫生做什麼樣的醫療已經夠煩惱了，更何況因要耽憂醫療費用，要作出決定是否讓孩子繼續住在保溫箱更是天人交戰！。

這些早產兒都是非常寶貴的生命，他們不是統計數字、也不是標本，他們是可愛的小天使，政府有義務責任要搶救照顧使他們存活。有一天這些小孩，會長大而成為我們社會和我們國家的棟樑，他們值得我們在他們最軟弱、最需要幫助的時候投資，讓他們能有最好的機會活下去。

Our daughter, Alicia, was born in the early morning of May 29, 2011, three months before her due date. Because she was born at 25 +1 week gestational age, she was only 654 grams at birth, extremely small and extremely weak. I’ll never forget the first moment I saw my daughter splayed out like a science experiment. She was all skin and bones and I dare not touch her for fear of breaking her. After my first visit with my daughter, the doctor pulled me aside and spoke to me earnestly. She told me that our daughter was in an extremely precarious position, and there were no guarantees that she would even survive past the week. That was a big blow to us, as we had eagerly anticipated the arrival of our precious baby girl for six months by this time. But there was little we could do but pray, and entrust the life of our baby girl into the hands of the doctors and nurses at China Medical University Hospital’s NICU. We will forever be grateful to these health professionals who poured their heart and their energy into the care and wellbeing of our little one. Over the next four and a half months, our daughter who should have been growing inside of my wife’s womb, grew up instead inside an incubator under the careful watch of these dedicated uncles and aunties. We are absolutely grateful that our daughter was born at a time as this where modern medicine and technology is so well-developed. If it weren’t for devices such as ventilators, incubators and monitors, I don’t know if our daughter would be with us today. It was also so vital for us at that point in our lives, being young parents, that we had the assistance of Taiwan’s incredible Health Insurance. By the time our daughter was finally discharged from the hospital, we had an incredible medical bill of over NT$1,000,000,000. If it hadn’t been for Health Insurance, there is no way that we would have been able to afford the level of care that our daughter received. I can’t even imagine needing to make a choice of either going into debt, or allowing my daughter to live. Thankfully, we didn’t have to make that choice. And today our daughter is a bright, healthy four-year-old who is incredibly smart and brings immense amounts of joy and happiness to everyone she comes in contact with. It is our sincerest hope and prayer that future parents would also be able to enjoy the support and assistance of Health Insurance to support them when they need it. When a child is born in such a critical nature, there are many, many decisions and plans that parents need to make. It is absolutely stressful enough for parents to try to understand all that is happening with the child, also the different medicines and procedures they need to go through, without needing to worry about whether or not they can afford the care needed to keep the child alive. These premature infants are precious lives. They are incredible valuable, and a treasure. They are not statistics, or specimens. They are human lives. Human lives that deserve to have the best chance at survival. One day these babies, these humans, will for sure grow up to give incredible contributions to our nation and our society. It is absolutely worth the investment to support these children at the most crucial and critical moments of their lives.