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It's 1.48am on a Friday night. I'm writing this as Layla is suckling away.
The last few nights she's been waking up 2-3 times a night and she suckles for much longer than usual. For quite sometimenow, Layla's been waking up either only once at night or sometimes none at all. I suspect she's teething. I know she's not hungry. I know she's just latching for comfort - comfort of being held to sleep in the warmth of my arms. She drinks for 10 mins and latches for 30-40mins refusing to let me go. She suckles harder when i try to pull away. Eventually i gave up, i just wait for her to release at her own time.
This morning i couldn't wake up at 7am to greet her. I was just so insanely tired. For the first time, i slept in and skip our morning playtime. It's taken a toll on me trying to manage both filming and motherhood.
I know i can just let her cry a bit and let my helper pat her back to sleep. I can 'sleep-train' her and toughen her up. But i choose her. There are nights where i had to literally roll myself off the bed, drag my feet to attend to her. But i still do. Because i know she needs me, for whatever the reason may be. Because i know someday, she'll not need me anymore. Because i know she feels better when I'm there with her.
The last 2 nights, when i go carry her at wee hours in the morning, she rewarded me with big, open-mouth, wet, sloppy kisses. The best kiss ever. That was all i needed to keep going.
Someday will be the last day. And til then, I'll savour all my moments with her. I'll indulge in her, as i allow her to indulge in me.
Thank you for choosing me Layla Woo. I'm so blessed to have you.
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