Chan Fong dai gor, Nei hou!
Can just call me 'crazy monkey' 😁
I'm feeling a little depressed and feel so empty. I am a guy also like guys. Yes I'm gay and over 30 years old, and still single. I try to focus more on career and friendship, somehow, i feel empty, although people around me do love me.
Even in dating apps also, most of them only want sex. Not short of so-called straight/married men, make me feel even worse. Are you kidding me? You are married to a woman, why are you here? This is not what I want, and I have deleted all the dating apps.
I try to change myself, be more proactive and not too passive, just approach other guys if I am feeling the mutual attraction. But it doesn't work. It's like shooting arrow at the wrong spot. It takes a great courage, to do so. Some men (some la, not like many) even try to hide it and try to just marry other woman and be normal, but it's 2021, we are no longer living in 1921! My goodness! I will continue to be more proactive, i don't mind others laughing at me, I just want to find happiness. I will continue trying. Condemn me if they want to, say I'm not normal (bien tai), if they want to, but I know I just want happiness just like everybody else.
However, I am aware that It is hard indeed for us gay to find love, it's really hard.
I can be happy at day time, but at the night time, I am still not happy. I smile a lot, laugh a lot, even watching you tube video also keep me laughing. But at night, I really feel lonely.
crazy monkey
