關於 he who has hope has everything ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

HI HI TO ALL MY HAPPY ‘TAP” FAMILYYYY ❣️❣️❣️

I haven’t written to you all for such a long time and I do apologize so much for this. I don’t know how TIME FLIES the way it does!

I wanted to share some thoughts on this very momentous and memorable DAY in my life.. I am strolling into the BIG 6 ❤️ today!!! My BRAIN IS EMPTY!!

All I can think of is HOW GRATEFUL I am to the Universe, and to all of YOU, to my LOVING FAMILY, my INCREDIBLE FRIENDS… all this life has brought to me.. that our Planet is so beautiful and there is so much to be thankful and OPEN to.

After 60 years, chasing so many things, experiencing the excitement, ups and downs of almost all of life, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds… and I realize, all I really desire and want, is a SIMPLE SMILE, WARMTH, UNDERSTANDING, A Heartwarming HUG, A phone call, or now, text to say HI… A Healthy and strong Body, LOTS & LOTS of LAUGHTER, CONNECTION, COMMUNICATION, LOVE, LOVE & LOVE. No matter what circumstances we run into, Rain, Thunder, Protests, Covid, it is absolutely possible to realize that ALL THINGS MUST PASS, and through the most difficult or most ravishing times, we can find comfort in holding the hands of those loving people around us. I know there is still so much more to learn while we are so BLESSED to be a VALUED GUEST on this Earth for such a fleeting moment. I feel I must keep on learning and evolving to be the BEST person I can be.

I realize that when we are born, we need so much love, feeding, nurturing, understanding, and a lot of HELP! When we get old, we need so much love, feeding, tolerance, patience, understanding, and a lot of HELP! There is no difference in the VALUE of each end of the stick. Just what we can do in between that will make ALL the difference and we all have a CHOICE in how we want to write our own, unique, wonderful, heartfelt STORY.

LIFE can be, and IS SO VERY BEAUTIFUL. The Beauty I used to understand doesn’t hold any meaning for me anymore.. The BEAUTY I HOLD TRUE is the LOVE & BEAUTY inside of ME and all the surroundings of the amazing Mother Nature. Each of us, is handcrafted so very intricately, to have all the same physical features, yet not a single one of us is a duplicate of another. We all have a brain to think, yet every single one of us does not think like any other. We ALL have a PATH, yet every one of our paths is different from each other. But we are ALL meticulously woven together, our lives, our actions are all intertwined. Every action we take, affects another. Every tree, every flower, mountain, sea, sky, clouds, animals, and all beloved creatures. We are the unique creatures, blessed with thinking, speaking & doing. I feel I must do everything I can to HONOR this special GIFT from Mother Nature. Beauty is DEEP & ROOTED & everywhere we look. I’m going to embrace everything PapaGOD & the Universe has given me.

I’m SO GRATEFUL for making it this far, in GOOD HEALTH, GOOD SPIRITS, GOOD MIND & BODY. Every day is a SURPRISE to me. Every moment is truly a BLESSING and ever so sacred. I will continue to live each BLESSED day with an open heart, open mind, and open SPIRIT. I will live each day as HIGH as I can go, no matter how low I feel. I will enjoy growing old GRACEFULLY, and make a conscious effort to do and BE the BEST I can be EACH SINGLE DAY, CHERISH & take care of it like a RARE and Beautiful JEWEL, which LIFE & our EARTH IS.

Today I spend with my LOVING FAMILY & MY FRIENDS. Well.. one loving Family is missing and in Mainland, now resting, but working VERY HARD! I’m so proud of Lam because we are so happy that he gets to SHARE his music with a WHOLE NEW GENERATION of wonderful, talented singers. It’s a GREAT BLESSING to sing with these enthusiastic Artists who can make a great difference in the world with their bellowing voices. I watch every episode with great anticipation and I hope you will too! All the Artists create their own Magic with each song & emotions!

I also would like to share with you my real and Authentic physical & Spiritual SELF!!! I just want to BE TOTALLY and ALL OF what is TRULY ME! I hope you all can accept me as I AM, white hair with my cutey wrinkles! Lam really enjoys it cos now I can keep him COMPANY & look like TWINS! I don’t know where my WHOLE self will go from here.. but I’m really going to look forward to all the natural progressions my mind and body will be taking.. just like Mother Nature.. she accepts all that comes to her and embraces it all…just as it is!

I wonder if I can remotely understand the meaning of life by now? I want to TAP (THINK ACTPOSITVE) at all times making others HAPPY & be HAPPY to see others HAPPY! I understand there is NO RIGHT or WRONG in any of our actions whether positive or negative, but only the divine consequences of those actions we choose. I feel we are BLESSED to be here with a DIVINE PURPOSE which is to help ourselves & each other. To preserve and maintain this amazing PLANET & EARTH. To evolve ourselves, & each generation, so they can pass the baton and also evolve the Earth! I also feel we are definitely NOT ALONE! NEVER! We are always in the SOOTHING, EMBRACING arms of the Divine Source Universe, and when we feel we don’t know where to turn, PapaGOD is ALWAYS there for us, ready to give us whatever we want in the deepest of our hearts with the utmost sincerity. Everything we receive is in its Divine Timing, and Divine Perfection.

With that.. HAPPYNESS & GREAT HEALTH TO ALL OF YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS and LOVE YOURSELF as well as LOVE ALL THOSE and EVERYTHING AROUND YOU! BELIEVE ME.. ALL WE HAVE and NEED IS LOVE!!!!

MUAH MUAH MUAH with 60 YEARS OF BLESSINGS! YEHHHHHH!!!!
ALL MY LOVE!! SALLY!!!

PS. I had a great wonderful party with best of FRIENDS TONITE❣️❣️ Came home and took some selfies to shock all of U❣️❣️ My HAPPY DECADE HAPPY 6💜 GIRL (⁉️) look❣️❣️ CHEERS EVERYONE❣️❣️❣️🌹🌹🧚🏽‍♀️🧚🏽‍♀️🧚🏽‍♀️

HI HI 快樂的 “TAP” 大家庭 ❣️❣️

已經很久沒有給大家寫信了，對此我深表歉意。不知道時間怎麼就這樣過去了!

我想在生命中這個非常重要和難忘的日子和大家分享一些想法和感觸 —— 今天我悠然邁入了以6字開頭的歲月!! ❤️ 大腦一片空白!!

我所能想到的是對上天，對你們每一位，對親愛的家人，對不可思議的朋友們 —— 對生命所贈與我的這一切 —— 所懷有的深深感激。我們所生活的星球如此美麗，實在有太多太多需要去感謝、感激，去敞開心扉擁抱。

60年過去了，我也曾經追逐過很多，在每月每週每日每分每秒中，經歷了生命可能賦予的幾乎所有激動和起落，而如今我意識到，自己真正渴望和想要的，只是一個簡單的微笑，溫暖，理解，一個暖心的擁抱，一通電話，或者現在更流行的，問好的一條短信.. 一個健康強壯的身體，很多很多笑聲，連結，交流，愛，愛，以及，愛。無論我們遇到怎樣的狀況 —— 下雨、雷電、抗議、疫情，一直要謹記於心的是，無論如何，這一切終將過去；在最困難或最開心的時刻，我們都能握住身邊人的手，並從中找到最大的安慰或共鳴。能得此幸運，在如此短暫的一剎，來到地球做她的尊貴旅客，我知道還有太多東西需要學習，感覺自己必須不斷學習成長，才能成為最好的自己。

我也意識到，出生的時候，我們需要很多愛，需要被餵食物，需要關懷、滋養、理解，需要很多幫助！變老後，我們也需要很多愛，需要被餵食物，需要寬容、耐心、理解，需要很多幫助！人生兩端的價值，並沒有任何分別。只有在中間段，我們能選擇如何去書寫屬於自己的，獨特的，精彩的，發自內心的故事；而也正是在中間段所做的選擇，決定了我們會有怎樣的人生。

生活可以，也確實是非常美麗的。我曾經所理解的美，對於現時的我而言，已經沒有了當初的意義。現在，我所抱持的真正的美，是內心的愛與美，以及令人驚嘆的大自然所賦予的，環繞著我們的一切。每個人都好似複雜精緻的手工藝品，雖然有著相同的身體特徵，但沒有一個人是另一個人的複製品。我們都有大腦可以思考，但每個人和其他人想的都不同。我們都有要走的人生之路，但每個人的道路各不相同。然而，大家又被如此精心地連結在一起，彼此的生活和行為交織在一起。我們採取的每一個行動，都不可避免地影響著他人，甚至影響著每一棵樹，每一朵花；影響著山、海、天空、雲朵、動物，和所有其他可愛生靈。我們是獨一無二的存在，有福氣擁有思考、講話和行動的能力。所以我感覺自己必須盡所能去致敬和珍視這份來自自然的特殊禮物。美深深根植於我們目光所及的每處。我將擁抱上天和世界贈與我的一切。

我很感激人生走到了這裡，健康，精神，頭腦和身體都很好。每一天對我來說都是驚喜。每一刻都是充滿祝福和神聖的。我將繼續以開放的心靈、開放的思想和開放的精神去過好每一天。我會盡力去把每天過到最好，儘管有時候也會感覺低落。我將享受優雅地變老，有意識地努力在每天做到自己的最好，也成為最好的自己，珍惜和照顧匆匆而過的每日，好似它們是稀有又美麗的珠寶；而其實，生命和地球也的確如此。

今天我會和我愛的家人們和朋友們一起度過。對的，一位有愛家人不在這裡，他在內地，現在有空休息一下，但一直都在非常努力地工作! 我為Lam 感到驕傲，因為大家都非常開心他有機會同新一代如此出色、才華橫溢的年輕歌手們分享他的音樂。與這些富有激情的藝術家們一起唱歌是一種巨大的幸福；年輕一代的歌聲將給這個世界帶來改變。每一期節目我都有充滿期待地觀看，希望你們也會看！所有的藝術家們都在用每首歌和感情創造著自己的魔法！

我也想和你們分享真實的自我——外在與內在，容貌及心靈!!! 我只想做完完全全的，真正的自己！希望你們能夠接受這樣的我，白頭髮，和可愛的皺紋! Lam 很喜歡我這樣，因為現在我可以和他作伴，我們看上去像雙胞胎! 我不知道我的整個自我會從這裡走向何方，但對接下來身心將會經歷的所有自然旅程，我真心期待… 就好像大自然一樣，她接受並擁抱一切如它們本初的樣子！

我好奇自己現在是否可以算作大概開始理解人生的意義呢？我想做TAP (THINK ACTPOSITVE)，隨時通過正面積極的思考和行動為他人帶去開心，而看到他人開心也會令我感到開心！我明白我們的任何行為，無論是積極或是消極的，都無關對錯；只是，不可避免的，選擇的行為都會帶來相應的結果。我感覺帶著神聖的目的來到這裡是一份福祉，而這個目的就是助人助己，是保護和維繫這個不可思議的星球，是持續進化發展自己和每一代人，這樣他們就可以繼續把進化地球的接力棒傳遞下去! 我也感覺到我們絕對不是孤獨的！從來都不是！我們一直都被上天撫慰著，擁抱在臂膀中。當感覺不知道如何走下去，上天總會在我們身邊，以最大的誠意給予我們內心深處最渴望的所有。我們得到的一切都有它神聖的時間表，都遵循著神聖的完美安排。

以上… 祝愿大家永遠幸福開心健康，愛自己，愛周圍的所有人，愛周圍的一切！相信我… 我們所擁有的和需要的一切，就是愛!!!!

MUAH MUAH MUAH with 60 YEARS OF BLESSINGS! YEHHHHH!!!!
ALL MY LOVE!! SALLY!!!

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The Three Groanings

“For the creation was subjected to vanity, not of its own will, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself also will be delivered from the bondage of decay into the liberty of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation groans and travails in pain together until now. Not only so, but ourselves also, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for adoption, the redemption of our body. For we were saved in hope, but hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for that which he sees? But if we hope for that which we don’t see, we wait for it with patience. In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered. He who searches the hearts knows what is on the Spirit’s mind, because he makes intercession for the saints according to God.” (Romans‬ ‭8:20-27‬ ‭WEB‬‬)

Firstly, the whole creation is groaning due to the fall that happened when Adam sinned. Sin brought death into the world, and death is producing all these groanings that show that creation is suffering.

God never designed for animals to harm man, and insects (such as mosquitoes) never bit Adam and Eve in the garden. Every creature, including man, was herbivorous, eating plants and fruits.

“God said, “Behold, I have given you every herb yielding seed, which is on the surface of all the earth, and every tree, which bears fruit yielding seed. It will be your food. To every animal of the earth, and to every bird of the sky, and to everything that creeps on the earth, in which there is life, I have given every green herb for food;” and it was so.” (Genesis‬ ‭1:29-30‬ ‭WEB‬‬)

After Adam, the appointed ruler of earth, ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil against God’s command, that sin caused all of Adam’s subjects and kingdom to experience death and fall under a curse.

Ever since, the earth has been groaning, suffering from the effects of sin. Earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, tsunamis, hurricanes—these are some manifestations of the earth’s groans.

Animals, insects, and birds attacking humans, plants producing poisons, these are also part of creation’s groans.

Secondly, we believers who have the indwelling Holy Spirit groan because we feel all the limitations and imperfections of this mortal body that has been corrupted by sin.

We who know about the Rapture eagerly long for the redemption of our body. Imagine a body that can never die or be destroyed. It never feels suffering, tiredness, or weakness, and can appear and disappear at will, traveling across the world in an instant, passing through solid objects at ease if needed to. This are just some of the amazing capabilities of the glorified body that is promised to us. Jesus demonstrated these after He rose from the dead.

God knows that we are groaning within, and that the sinful flesh makes us limited and weak at times. Our spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. To combat this, God gave us the greatest gift after Jesus’ ascension: the indwelling Holy Spirit.

The Spirit prays for the solutions to our most urgent needs that even we are unaware of, and He does so through groans that cannot be uttered.

Even though the Spirit does not pray with intelligible words, Abba God knows what is in the Spirit’s mind, and He takes that as perfect prayer in accordance with His own will.

These are the three groanings. The first came because of sin, the second because of patiently waiting for the final part of redemption, and the third is God’s gracious help to us while we are still waiting.

How wonderful it is to know that the Holy Spirit is offering up perfect prayers for you, even when you do not know the right things to pray for.

“Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, yes rather, who was raised from the dead, who is at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us.” (Romans‬ ‭8:34‬ ‭WEB‬‬)

In the same chapter, we find that Jesus who is in Heaven is also praying for us.

We have the Holy Spirit praying for us from earth, and we have Jesus praying for us from Heaven. This is according to Abba God’s will, and it is perfect.

“What then shall we say about these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who didn’t spare his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how would he not also with him freely give us all things?” (Romans‬ ‭8:31-32‬ ‭WEB‬‬)

The triune God is for you, not against you. The world was corrupted by sin, but God’s heart is not to destroy or condemn the world, but to save it.

He has already provided the perfect atonement through the blood that Jesus shed at the cross. God is using all His power to give you a glorious future, so put your faith in Him!

You don’t have to feel helpless or afraid…God has given you powerful spiritual weapons to use in spiritual warfare. In “Silencing the Serpent”, you will discover what these weapons are, what the enemy’s tactics are, and how you can break free from longtime addictions, bondages, and unhelpful beliefs: https://bit.ly/silence-the-serpent-now

Guard Your Heart with Psalm 91

“I will say of Yahweh, “He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust.” For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler, and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers. Under his wings you will take refuge. His faithfulness is your shield and rampart. You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day; nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that wastes at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; but it will not come near you. You will only look with your eyes, and see the recompense of the wicked. Because you have made Yahweh your refuge, and the Most High your dwelling place, no evil shall happen to you, neither shall any plague come near your dwelling. For he will put his angels in charge of you, to guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, so that you won’t dash your foot against a stone.” (Psalms‬ ‭91:2-12‬ ‭WEB‬‬)

Remember that true protection comes from the Lord. Meditate on the Scriptures and confess them over yourself and your loved ones. Guard your heart from the fear and worry that is being perpetuated by the media.

When you believe and speak God’s word, God’s power is released in that related area of your life. His words are spirit and life, not just inanimate ink on a page.

A refuge is a place that you flee to after being attacked, while a fortress is a place you can preemptively position yourself to be far from the enemy.

Whether you have been attacked or not, Jesus is your source of safety, protection, and healing.

Someone may say, “What about those Christians that got it? So many in that local church got sick. How can God’s promises be true?”

Well, one needs to believe in God’s promises before he will experience it. They do not manifest for a Christian who is unbelieving and stricken by fear.

We do not know their state of mind at the time when they fell sick, and what their local church teaches about God’s protection. Some do not believe in it.

I like that Psalm 91 specifically shows that we can believe God for protection from everything that the world is afraid of nowadays. We do not have to guess God’s will in this case—it is plainly written.

Even if you hear of news about people getting sick in your neighborhood, God’s word remains true: a thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand, but it shall not come near you.

The enemy probably hates it when you believe this. “What makes you think you are so special? Others are dying and in critical condition, and you have the cheek to say that it cannot come near you?”

You are specially protected if you believe in God’s promises. You are a sanctified child of God who has access to His protection by faith. His angels will be mobilized to guard you in all your ways, to destroy every weapon of the enemy near you.

Sometimes, believers who just stumbled and sinned feel unworthy of experiencing God’s protection. They feel like the hedge of protection has been lifted because they sinned and that God does this to teach them a lesson.

That is a false assumption that is not true under the New Covenant of Grace. Committing sin can cause your conscience to accuse you, but we must know that Grace is all about believing in what Jesus has done at the cross.

You can enjoy God’s protection from all manner of harm because Jesus shed His blood to make you forever righteous and favored in God’s sight. Protection is not a reward that you have to earn through good behavior. It is freely given as part of the salvation package—but you must believe in order to enjoy it!

Actionable Steps:

1. Meditate on Psalm 91 today and see which portion of it resonates deeply with you. Keep it in your heart and mutter it with your mouth throughout the week ahead.

2. Include words from Psalm 91 in your daily prayers for your family in the morning. Before everyone sets off for work or school, take time to tune everyone’s heart to be conscious of God’s lavish protection.

3. Look out for anyone you come across that feels unsafe or fearful because of the current situation. Encourage them with promises from Psalm 91 and tell them that Jesus loves them. There is always a good time to plant seeds of the Gospel in people’s hearts.

Our Patreon community is currently on a Bible Study series called “The Way Forward: How to Thrive Amidst Change”.

In a time of great fear, how can we as Christians thrive when the world is changing the way they do things? Many in the world are depressed and terrified because of the things that are happening around the world; the change ambushed most people so suddenly. Yes there is deep darkness covering the earth, but there is always hope for God’s children.

The Holy Spirit is giving us a word in season, showing us how to tap on the grace that is available now, and how to reign in life, even from your living room. I’m excited to see what He will show us in the days ahead!

This Bible Study series will be compiled into an eBook once we complete it.

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Before the huge guns and 6 packs you see, he was a skinny toothpick that was bullied and told he could never be anyone. My long time friend, Dennis Yin. Started as a clown at 14 with low self esteem, but managed to battle the demon within him and worked his way up to where he is today!

He has some of the craziest work ethics when it comes to pushing himself to achieve what he wants to achieve. Everything Dennis does, whether it be dancing, radio hosting, or acting in a movie, he pushes himself and performs it all at the highest level. I hope you guys enjoy this one as much as I did!

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Timecodes :
0:00​​ - Intro
7:22​ - Dennis's profile
10:48​ - 1st Malaysia YouTube wave
12:03 - Key Opinion Leaders have no say
15:47​ - Dancer's being underpaid
20:46​ - Elecoldxhot
23:02​ - "So You Think You Can Dance?"
27:37​ - Menari poyo la!
29:11 - Too Phat inspired me to bboy
33:48 - How we first met
35:28​ - Dennis looks like Taeyang
39:25​ - Jay Park wearing Negative
48:50​ - Being a clown at 14
57:39​ - Figuring out who Dennis Yin is
1:03:51​ - Taking care of your mental health
1:07:18 - What do you think of the dance scene now
1:12:04 - Before and after covid
1:16:36​ - Stay in your own lane
1:20:54 - I'll never be that kid again
1:22:30 - Date yourself
1:28:50 - Where should dancers go from here
1:34:12 - Real hip hop / fake hip hop
1:39:01 - Who do you want to prove wrong?
1:41:02 - Outro

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This excerpt is from: Faith That Delights The Lord (24 Dec 2020)
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Faith delights the Lord because it opens the floodgates for His breakthroughs and miracles to flow into your life! From the stories of underdogs in the Bible who faced impossible odds with unstoppable faith, find out how you, too, can face life and all its challenges with the same spirit of faith and possess every blessing the Lord freely and lavishly wants to give you. Discover keys that will help you:

• Have faith spring forth effortlessly when you see God as a good God who is for you.
• Boldly ask your heavenly Father for the blessings that are rightfully yours in Christ—including flourishing family relationships, divine healing, and protection.
• Position yourself for your miracle by focusing on the Lord’s love for you instead of your love for Him.
• Live with hope when you see how He is constantly working behind the scenes, even in your darkest moments, to make everything work together for your good.

Beloved, begin to walk in the kind of faith that pleases the Lord and start living the abundant life He has for you!

Chapters:
0:00 The Daughters Of Zelophehad And How They Changed Their Destiny
2:03 God Loves Bold Faith!
4:31 Have You Claimed Your God-Given Inheritance?
4:53 The Story Of Achsah And How She Changed Her Destiny
6:15 Receive This Blessing For Your Families
7:39 The Story Of Jabez And How He Changed His Destiny
8:18 Will You Possess Your Possessions Today?

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Hello Youtube family,

I'm a little nervous about posting today's video. I'm sorry it's not the usual chirpy type of vlog. Originally, the footage wasn't supposed to be up so early but life never goes the way we plan right?

It’s been a bit of an emotional week. Due to a missed period, I took a pregnancy test on 8th October to find out we were expecting again. Just to be sure, I sent Tim out to get more tests to be sure. Since he came back with a two-pack, I took another test and it came back positive again. With one spare, I took the other test the next day but it came back negative (note- it wasn’t morning urine). Confused- I sent the hubby to grab more. This time, he came back with a triple pack. The next test was a big fat positive. After the initial confusion, we realised we really wanted this baby and thought maybe this baby was truly meant to be.

At the same time, Tim and I didn’t want to think too much. It was very early so we knew anything could happen since 1 in 5 pregnancies end up in a miscarriage. However, it didn’t stop us from thinking of baby names and envisioning our life as a family of four.

During my photoshoot in London, I felt lightheaded and my stomach pains started to feel more intense. I thought maybe I was just over fatigued so didn’t want to worry myself too much. As I was waiting for my flight back home, I felt pressure in my lower region. I stumbled to the bathroom and realised I was bleeding. Rather than the dark brown spotting I had days ago, it was a brighter colour of red indicating fresh blood. The bleeding eventually stopped for a bit so I felt more assured but as I got out of the airplane, I felt the bleeding started to return. Since I was emotionally and physically tired from the long day, I went to to bed early with hopes that rest could maybe prevent the worse from happening. Around 6am, I woke up to more stomach pains and pressure as I went to use the bathroom, I finally accepted I was having a miscarriage.

I knew my body wasn’t in it’s best condition so in a lot of ways, I wonder if it could’ve been prevented. It’s been an emotional few days. I spent it doing some grieving and I feel a lot better now. Since I was less than 5 weeks along, I’m thankful the loss happened early. To those who have also experienced a loss, I am so so sorry and my heart is with you. Know that you are not alone. We can only try to understand that everything happens for a reason. I hope you can take comfort in your family and friends.

It made me thankful to know Isaac was born into the world safely with no complications. I know Tim and I are still young and we have more opportunities in the future to expand our family.

We were not ready for another baby and the pregnancy was definitely a shock but our early loss has made us realise that if we are blessed to get pregnant again in the future, we would be ready and happy for it.

Physically, my body doesn’t feel too bad. It just felt like I was having a very heavy period. Usually my flow finishes in 4-5 days but my womb completely cleared within 2 days. Still experiencing a little nausea and cramping but I’m getting lots of cuddles from the family. Chubbi and Domo make fantastic hot water bottles too.

Even though it was an early miscarriage, I think I was a more upset about it than I thought I would be. I wasn’t as excited as I was with my first pregnancy and it was because I was overwhelmed since I knew what to expect. Once I started to embrace the changes about to come our way, I was able to connect with my pregnancy with excitement. Unfortunately, by then- the pregnancy couldn't progress.

Tim has reminded me that I could’ve been perfectly healthy and careful and yet sometimes, these things will just happen. We still feel incredibly blessed for our family already. We will leave it all to the Lord. He has been taking care of our family and we know everything happens for a reason. We know other people out there have had it way worse. Our situation is nothing in comparison. We are always going to be thankful ^_^

Love, the Bubz family xo




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