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【Hello Hater】@鬼才做音樂 2021 Ghosician

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Uhh Hello Hater
啊 哈嘍 黑特

Uhh Mother Fxcker
啊 馬德法克

我又來了 (我又來了)
I am here again (I am here again)

我又來了 (我又來了)
I am here again (I am here again)

我又來了來了來了來!
I am here again, again!

我就是教壞囜仔大細 (幹)
I am the bad influencer to the multitudes (Fxck)

袂爽來找恁爸 (來)
If you are upset, come to me (Come)

假的帳號 到處留言
Using fake accounts to leave comments around

面對面陰莖縮進裡面 (咻)
Dick recoils while face to face (Aahs)

我教壞囜仔大細 (吶)
I will influence the multitudes negatively (Nah)

袂爽來找恁爸 (來)
If you are upset, come to me (Come)

確診陽痿 存一支嘴
Impotency leaves you with only a mouth to talk

幹恁阿公ㄟ踹共!
Fxck You, come and face me directly

踹! 呸!
Show up your face!

你頭腦裝洨
Your brain is filled up with semen

眼睛髒看東西都黑掉
Everything looks black in foul eyes

天生雞雞太小 薪水太少
Born with tiny dick, drawing a little salary

只能用鍵盤來高潮
Orgasm only via keyboard

因為想法跟你的不同
As my view is different from yours

所以才能夠比你成功
Therefore I attain greater success than you

看到社會不公 袂爽就講
I would voice up against injustice

你只能跪拜舔騙讚歌頌
You can only truckle and flatter

才不鳥限流被黃標 (想唱啥就唱啥我驕傲)
Never be bothered with restricted flow or yellow tag (I am proud to sing whatever I like)

還開了抖音微博帳號 (有空就麻煩快點舉報)
Registered TikTok and Weibo accounts in addition (Please report when you are available)

整天斷章取義 亂貼標籤
Always misinterpret and label me as you like

根本噁心犯賤 他媽嘴臉
Absolutely disgusting and cheap ugly face

快來黑我 訂閱 分享
Twisted my initial meaning, then subscribe & share my video

害我 每天在賺大錢
Making me tons of money

看見我執迷不悟 刀槍不入
How stubborn and invulnerable I am

脫了你三件內褲
Take off your three briefs

我就是全身的酷 看別人吐
I am damn cool, yet you threw up

Such an outlandish way of gesture
幹恁娘這種程度

Bought bullets cost thirty thousand Pew Pew Pew
買了個銃子 三萬塊嘟嘟嘟嘟

Talkative non-stop, I'll shoot your house
靠北我射你住處

I just need trap but not protection
我只要陷阱 不需要別人的護

Fxck your busybody noisy pig
操你妹雞婆的豬

I am not afraid, I choose to do only serious task
我沒在怕的 我只幹大的

Go to hell bastard, I wanna rebuke till you can't refute
去你的Sucker 壓著你罵的

Consistent tactics similar reply in comments, damn
一貫的伎倆 留言我操

Shut up when you have finished, I deal with big cases
罵完了閉嘴 老子搞大的

I am a sinner never give a shit about moral
我是個罪人 沒在管道德

場子可燥了 沒啥可套的
The place is so boring, nothing is interesting

我只要錢 我不要命
I am willing to risk for money

快給我Shit 而且要Free
Give me shit and it must be free of charge

女兒長大 學床叫
Daughter grown up mature begin to moan

臭婊子幹完 還要
After done first round, initiate another round

小孩照三餐 打掉
Repeated abortion non stop

懶得聽廢話 I’m Bounce
Fed up with the rubbish, goodbye

哈哈 (哈)
Haha (Ha)

幹妳的Bitch啪啪 (蛤?)
Fxck you bitch (Alright?)

媽媽生的臭俗辣 (臭俗辣)
Born to be a coward (Coward)

爸爸生的破麻 (Fxcked up)
Born to be a whore (Fxcked up)

留言區的廢物那些笨豬沒有惡意
All these comments left by the pigs are senseless

但是就是為了能在網路上面To The Top
Just to catch attention online

需要的是共鳴 才能發現
Demand for support, debunk the myth

佩服你的勇氣沒有準備還想Fxck
Salute your courage of simply fooling around

按你讚 快給我笑 (給我笑)
Give you Like, smile to me please (Smile to me)

討論度還在堆高 (長高)
Discussion is getting more intense (Growing)

把你爸媽Shut Down
Shut down your mom and dad

緬甸街中和Town (栗子)
Myanmar Street in Chunghe Town (Chestnut)

聽我的歌 每天看我的影片
Listen to my songs and watch my videos every day

像吞我的洨 然後吃我的大便
Like drink my semen and eat my poo

媒體就愛 報導轉貼
Media loves broadcast and re-post

你恨死恁爸 一直打臉
You hate me to death but slap in your own face

Hey Hater Loser Keyboard Warrior
嘿 黑特 魯蛇 键盘侠

You Mother Fxcker Come and Lick My Shit
馬德法克快來舔我的大便!

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Continue ReadingAll tech companies are heading into game business / invest manly
The technology industry is undoubtedly driving the world.
Because, wherever you look, things surrounding us are all related to technology companies.

Amazon provides e-commerce platforms
Alphabet, Google's mom company, search website, information.
Apple sells electronic devices such as iPhone, iPad
Facebook dominates social media platforms market.
Microsoft Develops Operating Systems and Computer Software

But did you know that there is one thing these companies are paying attention to?
That's the ′′ game business

What are tech companies doing about the game industry now?
Invest man will tell you about it.
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First start at Amazon

Amazon company has invested in the game business since 2014 after acquiring Twitch business, online video platform, game containers with 29,000 million baht.

Passing through now, Twitch has grown beyond the competitors clearly.
9,340 million hours a year videos are viewed by 73 % of the market.

In addition, they have a business called Amazon Web Services (AWS) that provides cloud database storage, which major game developers such as Bandai, Capcom, Epic Games, Supercell, Zynga are the company's customers.

Meaning that every time people play online, AWS services are also being used.
And most importantly, this business has much higher profit margins than E-commerce.

Next one is Alphabet

The company owns YouTube, the world's biggest online video platform, with about 250 million game-related followers per day.

In addition, YouTube has also launched a YouTube Gaming feature to support streaming games especially.
There are 2,681 million hours of video viewing per year. The market share of 21 % is the number 2, secondary from Twitch.

But what creates a lot of excitement for the industry.
Is Launching a cloud gaming platform business named Stadia at the end of 2019

This service may change the gaming patterns as we can buy games immediately. No need to download, install or need to use a good, expensive spectrum. Stadia will process and adjust the game quality details to suit the devices that people. Play and use.

The next company to talk about is Apple

In fact, indirect income game for Apple.
In 2019, there are people who spend in game application via App Store. App Store is about 1.2 trillion Baht. It is 70 % of all apps. Every 100 Baht will receive a share of 30 Baht.

Apple decided to expand its business to the gaming industry.
By launching an online gaming platform called Apple Arcade

Subscription subscriber, 150 baht per month. You can choose to play any game on every device of Apple brand.

There is an assessment that in the next 2 years, there will be around 50 million accounts of Apple Arcade users who will make additional income for the company over 93,000 million baht per year.

Another interesting one is Facebook.

Facebook has launched a 2018 Facebook Gaming online video feature.
Focusing on connecting to social media user base to create an advantage for people to follow contents easily under the same platform.

The company reveals 700 million video game visitors per month.
However, compared to the number of hours, Facebook Gaming also has a market share of only 3 %

But in the future, Facebook may develop new businesses similar to Google's Stadia.
Because I just bought PlayGiga business, cloud-based platform from Spain for 2,400 million baht.

And the eye-catching thing is Oculus VR owned by VR, a virtual reality technology developer with a high chance of making Facebook create successful virtual reality gaming devices.

The last part is Microsoft

Microsoft has been in the gaming business since 2001, as an Xbox gaming console developer that currently has total sales of more than 155 million machines.

And in 2016, the company launched a streaming platform named Mixer.
But the response is not as expected. There is only 3 % market share.

Get Microsoft to turn off this platform this July and rock the account with Facebook Gaming instead to collaborate with Twitch and YouTube.

In addition, Microsoft is also undergoing a cloud gaming business development. It is expected to be launched by XCloud this year.

All of them have businesses involved in gaming either way or anyhow.

But I have to say..
No matter how fierce the competition is, no one can compete with the real game owner like Tencent, Chinese tech company.

Because they have created or invested in a loud game with many players around the world like Fortnite, PlayerUnknown's Battlegrounds, Arena of Valor (RoV), League of Legends, Honor of Kings, Clash of Clans

Resulting in Tencent reigning the industry's highest position. Earning up to 612,000 million baht from the game business.

Arrived here. Many people may wonder why the game market is so interesting in the eyes of tech companies?

What these companies need is inevitable bringing their technology into consumer hands to build a strong user base.

Gaming business is becoming a very large industry.
From the world population of 7,800 million people, there are 2,700 million people playing games or around 35 %
Covering people of all ages and all devices whether it's mobile, computer or game console.

So, the game market is worth up to 4.7 trillion baht and it predicts that the number will grow to 6.2 trillion baht in 2023

The special thing is gaming people always pay to buy unlimited items or features.
Different from other markets where customers may buy limited amounts of money or subscription payments which are always the same.

And the company can also offer products to customers directly in real time. When order happens, players get items immediately. Game owners get paid at the same time.

While buying normally, consumers may have to shop at the mall or wait for delivery later. The seller may have a central or multi-layer dealer to get paid and also to manage inventory.

Including game owners and players can also do game-changing activities such as gamecast reviews or serious Esports to win prize money.

This is not surprising if it says in the near future, the game market where humans pay virtual purchases.
Could be bigger than any physical product market that is tangible..
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References
-https://edition.cnn.com/2020/06/28/tech/google-stadia-apple-arcade-mixer-gaming/index.html
-https://www.protocol.com/tech-gaming-amazon-facebook-microsoft
-https://www.geekwire.com/2019/microsofts-mixer-grows-audience-amazons-twitch-continues-dominate-streaming-market/
-https://aws.amazon.com/gametech/
-https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_best-selling_game_consoles
-https://www.reuters.com/article/esports-business-gaming-revenues/report-gaming-revenue-to-top-159b-in-2020-idUSFLM8jkJMl
-https://www.digitalinformationworld.com/2020/01/global-consumers-spent-over-83-billion-on-mobile-apps-in-the-last-12-months.html
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-https://www.statista.com/statistics/983227/global-video-games-revenue-companies/Translated

My sister, Michelle-Ann Iking's 3% chance of conceiving naturally was a success! Here's her story:

(My apologies as I've been overwhelmed with personal matters. I've only managed to get to my desk. So finally got around posting this).

This is the story behind my sister's pregnancy struggle and how she shared her journey over her Facebook page.

Because some may have not caught her LIVE session chat with me (https://www.facebook.com/daphneiking/videos/687743128744960/) , or read her lengthy post (as it's a private page);
she's allowed me to copy and paste it over my wall, in case you need to know more about her thought process on how AND why she focused on the 3% success probability. Read on.

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Posted 10th May 2020.
FB Credit: Michelle-Ann Iking

A week ago today I celebrated becoming a mother to our second, long awaited child.

Please forgive this mother's LONG (self-indulgent) post, journalling what this significant milestone has meant for her personally, for her own fallible memory's sake as well as maybe to share one day with her son.

If all you were wondering was whether I had delivered and if mum and bub are OK, please be assured the whole KkLM family are thriving tremendously, and continue scrolling right along your Newsfeed 😁.

OUR 3% MIRACLE

All babies are miracles... and none more so than our precious Kiaen Aaryan (pronounced KEY-n AR-yen), whose name derives from Sanskrit origins meaning:

Grace of God
Spiritual
Kind
Benevolent

...words espousing the gratitude Kishore and I feel for Kiaen's arrival as our "3% miracle".

He was conceived, naturally, after 3 years of Kishore and I hoping, praying and 'endeavoring'... and only couples for whom the objective switches from pure recreation to (elusive) procreation will understand how this is less fun than it sounds ...

3 years during which time we had consensus from 3 different doctors that we, particularly I (with my advancing age etc etc) had only a 3% chance of natural conception and that our best hope for a sibling for our firstborn, Lara Anoushka, was via IVF.

Lara herself was an 'intervention baby', being one of the 20% of babies successfully conceived through the less intrusive IUI process, after a year and a half of trying naturally and already being told then my age was a debilitating factor.

We had tried another round of IUI for her sibling in 2017 when Lara was a year old. And that time we fell into the ranks of the 80% of would-be parents for whom it would be an exercise in futility... who would go home, comfort each other as best they could, while individually masking their own personal disappointment... hoping for the best, 'the next time around'...

So the improbability ratio of 97% against natural conception of our second baby, as concurred by the combined opinion of 3 medical professionals, was a very real, very daunting figure for us to have to mentally deal with.

Deep, DEEP, down in my heart however, though I had many a day of doubt... I kept a core kernel of faith that somehow, I would again experience the privilege of pregnancy, and again, have a chance at childbirth.

And so, the optimist in me would tell myself, "Well, there have to be people who fall in the 3% bucket... why shouldn't WE be part of the 3%?"

Those who know me well, understand my belief in the Law of Attraction, the philosophy of focusing your mind only on what you want to attract, not on what you don't want, and so even as Kishore and I prepared to go into significant personal debt to attempt IVF in the 2nd half of 2019, I marshalled a last ditch effort to hone in on that 3% chance of natural conception... through research coming across fertility supplements that I ordered from the US and sent to a friend in Singapore to redirect to me because the supplier would not deliver to Malaysia.

I made us as a couple take the supplements in the 3 month 'priming period' in the lead up to the IVF procedure - preconditioning our bodies for optimum results, if you will.

At the same time, I had invested in a sophisticated fertility monitor, with probes and digital sensors for daily tracking of saliva and other unmentionable fluid samples, designed to pinpoint with chemical accuracy my state of fertility on any given day.

(UPDATE: For those interested - I obtained the supplements and Ovacue Fertility Monitor from https://www.fairhavenhealth.com/. Though I had my supplies delivered to a friend in Singapore, and redirected to me here since the US site does not deliver to Malaysia, there are local distributors for these products, you will just have to research the trustworthiness of the vendors yourself...)

I had set an intention - in the 3 months of pre-IVF priming, I would consume what seemed like a pharmacy's worth of supplements, and track fertility religiously... in hopes that somehow, within the 3 month priming period, we would conceive naturally and potentially save ourselves a down payment on a new property... and this was just a projection on financial costs of IVF, not even considering the physical, emotional and mental toll it involves, with no guarantee of a baby at the end of it all...

It was a continuation of an intention embedded even with my first pregnancy, where all the big ticket baby items were consciously purchased for use by a future sibling, in gender neutral colours, in hopes that sibling would be a brother "for a balanced pair", though of course any healthy child would be a welcome blessing.

It was a very conscious determination to always skew my thoughts in service of what the end objective was. For example, when 3+year old Lara would innocently express impatience at not yet having a sibling, at one point suggesting that since we were "taking too long to give her a baby brother/sister", perhaps we should just "go buy a baby from a shop", instead of getting defensive or berating the baby that she herself was, we enlisted Lara's help to pray for her sibling... so in any place of worship, or sacred ground of any kind that we passed thereon, Lara would stop, close her eyes, bow her small head and place her tiny hands together in prayer, reciting earnestly, "Please God, please give me a baby brother or baby sister."

After months and months of watching Lara do this, in the constancy of her childlike chant, Kishore started feeling the pressure of possibly disappointing Lara if her prayer was not answered. Whereas for me, Lara's recitation of her simple wish became like a strengthening mantra, our collective intention imbued with greater power with each repetition, and the goal of a sibling kept very much in the forefront of our minds (hence our calling Lara our 'project manager' in this endeavour).

And somehow in the 2nd month of that 3 month period, a positive + sign appeared on one of the home pregnancy tests I had grown accustomed to taking - my version of the lottery tickets others keep buying in hopes of hitting the jackpot, with all the cyclical anticipation and more often than not, disappointment, that entails...

This time however I was not disappointed.

With God's Grace, (hence 'Kiaen', a variation of 'Kiaan' which means 'Grace of God'), my focus on our joining the ranks of the 3% had materialised.

It seems poetic then, that Kiaen chose to make his appearance on the 3rd May, ironically the same date that his paternal great-grandfather departed this world for the next... such that in the combined words of Kishore and his father Kai Vello Suppiah,

"The 1st generation Suppiah left on 3rd May and the 4th generation Suppiah arrived on 3rd May after 41yrs...
One leaves, another comes, the legacy lives on..."

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KIAEN AARYAN SUPPIAH'S BIRTH STORY

On Sunday 3rd May, I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

The baby was, in my mind, very UN-fashionably late past his due date of 29th April, so as much as I had willed and 'manifested' the privilege of pregnancy, to say I was keen to be done with it all was an understatement.

In the weeks leading to up to my full term, I had experienced increasingly intense Braxton-Hicks 'practice contractions' - annoying for me for the discomfort involved, stressful for Kishore who was on tenterhooks with the false alarms, on constant alert for when we would actually need to leave home for the hospital.

Having become a Hypnobirthing student and advocate from my first pregnancy with Lara, and thus being equipped with
(1) a lack of fear about childbirth in general and
(2) a basic understanding of how all the sensations I would experience fit into the big picture of my body bringing our baby closer to us,
I was less stressed - content to wait for the baby to be "fully cooked" and come out whenever he was ready... though I wouldn't have minded at all if the cooking time ended sooner, rather than later.

With Lara, I had been somewhat 'forced' into an induced labour, even though she was not yet due, and that had resulted in a 5 DAY LABOUR, a Birth Story for another post, so I was not inclined to chemically induce labour, even though I was assured that for second time mothers, it would be 'much faster and easier'...

That morning, I had a hunch *maybe* that day was the day, because in contrast to previous weeks' sensations of tightening, pressure and even spasms that were concentrated in the front of my abdomen and occasionally shot through my sides and legs, I felt period - like cramping in my lower back which I had not felt before throughout the pregnancy.

It was about 8am in the morning then, and my 'surges' were still relatively mild ('surges' being Hypnobirthing - speak for 'contractions', designed to frame them with the more positive connotations needed to counteract common language in which childbirth is presented as something that is unequivocally painful and traumatic, instead of the miraculous, powerful and natural phenomenon it actually is).

I recall (masochistically?) entertaining the thought of opting NOT to have an epidural JUST TO SEE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE...

I figured this would be the last time I would be pregnant and so it would be my 'last chance' to experience 'drug free labour' which, apart from the health benefits for baby and mother, might be *interesting* in a way that people who are curious about what getting a tattoo and skydiving and bungee jumping are like, might find these *interesting*...even knowing there will be pain and risk involved...

Since I have tried tattoos and skydiving (unfortunately not being able to squeeze in bungee-jumping while my life was purely my own to risk at no dependents' possible detriment) a similar curiousity about a no-epidural labour was on my mind...

In the absence of other signs of the onset of labour (like 'bloody show' or my waters breaking), I wanted to wait until the surges were coming every few minutes before we actually left the house for the hospital, not wanting to be one of those couples who rushed in too early and had interminable waits for the next stage in unfamiliar, clinical surroundings and/or were made to go home in an anti-climatic manner.

I was even calm enough through my surges to have the presence of mind to wash and blowdry my hair, knowing if I did deliver soon I would not be allowed this luxury for a while.

Around 9am I asked Kishore to prep for Lara and himself to be dressed and breakfasted so we could head to hospital soon, while I sent messages to family members on both sides informing them 'today might be the day.'

My mother, who had briefly served as a midwife before going back into general nursing and then becoming a nursing tutor, prophetically stated that if what I was experiencing was true labour, "the baby would be out by noon".

The pace in which my surges grew closer together was surprisingly quicker than I expected; and while I asked Lara to "Hurry up with breakfast" with only a tad more urgency than we normally tell her to do, little Missy being prone to dilly-dallying at meals, I probably freaked Kishore out when about 930am onwards, I had to instinctively get on my hands and knees a couple of times, eyes closed, trying to practice the Hypnobirthing breathing techniques I had revised to help along the process of my body birthing our child into the world.

I recall him saying a bit frantically as I knelt at our front door, doubled over as he waited for Lara to complete something or other, "Lara hurry up! Can't you see Mama is in so much pain and you are taking your own sweet time??!!"

SIDETRACK: Just the night before, Lara and I had watched a TV show in which a woman gave birth with the usual histrionics accompanying pop culture depictions of labour.

Lara watched the scene, transfixed.

I told her, simply and matter-of-factly, "That's what Mama has to do to get baby brother out Lara, and that's what I had to do for you also."

In most of interactions with my daughter, I have sought to equip her to face life's situations with calmness, truthful common sense, and ideally a minimum of drama.

Those who know the dramatic diva that Lara can be will know that this is a work-in-progress, but her response to me that night showed me some of my 'teachings' were sinking in:

She looked at me unfazed, "But Mama," she said. "You won't cry and scream like that lady, right? You will be BRAVE and stay calm, right?"
#nopressure.

So as we prepped to leave for the hospital I did indeed attempt to be that role model of calm for her, asking her only for her help in keeping very quiet,
"Because Mama needs to focus on bringing baby brother out and she needs quiet to concentrate...".

As we left the house at 10.11am, I texted Kishore's sister Geetha to please prep to pick up Lara from the hospital, and was grateful Kishore had the foresight to ask our gynae to prepare a letter for Geetha to show any police roadblocks between my in-laws' home in Subang Jaya and the hospital in Bangsar, this all happening under the Movement Control Order (MCO).

To Lara's credit, in the journey over to the hospital, she - probably sensing the gravity of the situation, sat very quietly in her seat at the back, and the silence was punctuated only by my occasional deep intakes of breath and some variation of my Ohmmm-like moans when the sensations were at their height.

By the time we got to Pantai Hospital at around 10.30am, my surges were strong enough I requested a wheelchair to assist me in getting to the labour ward, as I did not trust my own legs to support me... and Kishore would have to wait until Geetha had arrived to take Lara back to my in-laws' house before he himself could go up.

I slumped in the wheelchair and was wheeled up to the labour room with my eyes closed the whole time, trying to handle my surges.

I didn't even look up to see the attendant who pushed me... but did make the effort to thank him sincerely when he handed me over, with what seemed like a palpable sense of relief on his part, to the labour ward nurses.

The nurse attending me at Pantai was calm, steady and efficient. I answered some questions and changed into my labour gown while waiting for Kishore to come up, all the while managing the increasingly intense surges with my rusty Hypnobirthing breathing techniques.

By the time Kishore joined me at around 11am (I know these timings based on the timestamps of the 'WhatsApp live feed' of messages Kishore sent to his family), I was asking the nurse on duty, "How soon can I get an epidural??" thinking what crazy woman thought she could do this without drugs???!!!

The nurse checked my cervix dilation, I saw her bloodied glove indicating my mucous plug had dislodged, and she told me, "Well you are already at 7cm (which, for the uninitiated, is 70% of the way to the 10cm dilation needed for birthing), you are really doing well, if you made it this far without any drugs, if can you try and manage without it... I suspect within 2 hours or less you will deliver your baby and since it will take about that time for the anaesthesiologist to be called, epidural to be administered and kick in... it might all be for nothing... but of course the decision is completely up to you... "

So there I was, super torn, should I risk the sensations becoming worse... or risk the epidural becoming a waste?? And of course I was trying to decide this as my labour surges were coming at me stronger and stronger...

I was in such a dilemma...because as a 'recovering approval junkie' there was also a silly element of approval-seeking involved, ("The nurse thinks I can do this without drugs... maybe I CAN do this without drugs... Yay me!") mixed with that element of curiosity I mentioned earlier ("What if I actually CAN do this without drugs... plenty of other women have done it all over the world since time immemorial.. no big deal, how bad can it be...??") so then I thought I would use the financial aspect to be the 'tiebreaker' in my decision making...

I asked the nurse how much an epidural would cost and when she replied "Around MYR1.5k", I still remember Kishore's incredulous face as I asked the question, i.e."Seriously babe, you are gonna think about money right now? If you need the epidural TAKE IT, don't worry about the money!!!"... and while we are not rich by any stretch of the imagination, thankfully RM1.5k is not a quantum that made me swing towards a decision to "better save the money"...

So in the end, I guess my curiosity won out, and I turned down the epidural "just to see what it would be like and if I had it in me" (in addition of course to avoiding the side effects of any drugs introduced into my and the baby's body).

My labour occuring in the time of coronavirus, it was protocol for me to have a COVID19 test done, so the medical staff could apply the necessary precautions. I had heard from a friend Sharon Ruba that the test procedure was uncomfortable, so when the nurse came with the test kit as I was starting another surge, I asked, "Please can I just finish this surge before I do the test?" as I really didn't think I could multitask tackling multiple uncomfortable sensations in one go.

The COVID19 test involved what felt like a looong, skinny cotton bud being inserted into one nostril... I definitely felt more than a tickle as it went in and up, being told to take deep breaths by the nurse. Then she asked me to "Try to swallow" and I felt it go into my nasal cavities where I didn't think anything could go any further, but was proven wrong when she asked me to swallow again and the swab was probed even deeper. Then she warned me there would be some slight discomfort as she prepared to collect a sample... but at that point all I could think about was:

(i) I really don't have much of a choice
(ii) please let this be over before my next surge kicks in
(iii) if all the people breaking the MCO rules knew what it feels like to do this test maybe they won't put themselves at risk of the need to perform one...

In full disclosure as I was transferred into the actual delivery room at some point after 11am, another nurse offered me 'laughing gas' to ostensibly take some of the edge off... I took the self-operated breathing nozzle passed to me but don't recall it making any difference to my sensations..so didn't use it much as it seemed pretty pointless.

I recall some measure of relief when I heard my gynae Dr. Paul entering the room, greeting Kishore and me, and telling us it was going well and it wouldn't be long now and he would see us again shortly.

From my previous labour with Lara I knew the midwives pretty much take you 90% of the way through the labour and when the Dr is called in you are really at the home stretch, so was very relieved to hear his voice though knowing he would leave and come back later meant it wasn't quite over yet.

I do remember realising when I had crossed the Thinning and Opening Phase of labour to the Birthing Phase, by the change in sensations... it is still amazing to me that as the Hypnobirthing book mentioned, having this knowledge I was instinctively able to switch breathing techniques for the next stage of labour .

Was my opting against epidural the right choice for me?

Overall? Yes.

Don't get me wrong.

I *almost* regretted the decision several times during active labour... especially when I felt my body being taken over by an overwhelming compulsion to push that did not seem conscious and was accompanied by involuntary gutteral moans where I literally just thought to myself, "I surrender, God do with me what you will..." (super dramatic I know but VERY real at the time...).

I think I experienced 3-4 such natural explusive reflexes (?), rhythmically pushing the baby down the birth path, one of which was accompanied by what felt like a swoosh of water coming out of a hose with a diameter the size of a golf ball... this was when I realised my water had finally broken...

The nurses kept instructing me to do different things, to keep breathing, to move to my side, then to move to the middle, to raise my feet... and when I didn't comply, Kishore (who was with me throughout both my labours) tried to help them by repeating the instructions prefaced with "Sayang..." but I basically ignored all the intructions because I felt I had no capacity to direct any part of my body to do anything and someone else would have to physically manoeuvre that body part themselves.

When I heard Dr. Paul's voice again and the flurry of commotion surrounding his presence, I knew the time was close... and when I heard the nurse say to Kishore, "Sir, these are your gloves, for when you cut the baby's cord", it was music to my ears...

I'm very, VERY grateful Kiaen slid out after maybe the 4th of those involuntary pushes... the wave of RELIEF when he came out so quickly... it still boggles my mind that my mother was essentially right and as his birth time was 12.02pm, it was *only* about 1.5 hours between our arrival at the hospital and his arrival into the world.

Kiaen was placed on my chest for skin to skin bonding and remained there for a considerable time.

For our short stay in the hospital he would be with us in my maternity ward number C327... another trivially serendipitous sign for me because he was born on the 3rd (May) and our wedding anniversary is 27th (July).

I was discharged the following day 4th May at about 5.30pm, after I got an all clear on COVID19 and a paediatric surgeon did a small procedure on Kiaen to address a tongue-tie that would affect his breastfeeding latch... making the entire duration of our stay about 31 hours.

I have taken the time and effort to record all this down so that whenever life's challenges threaten to get me down I can remind myself, "Ignore the 97% failure probability, focus on the 3% success probability".

Also that the human condition is miraculous and it is such a privilege to experience it.

To our son Kiaen Aaryan, thank you for coming into our lives and choosing us as your parents.

Even though Papa and I are both zombies trying to settle into a night time feeding routine with you, I look forward to spending not only all future Mother's Days, but every day, with you and your Akka...

And last but not least, to my husband Kishore...without whom none of this would be possible - we did it sayang, I love you ❤️

Photo credit: Stayhome session with Samantha Yong Photography (http://samanthayong.com/)

Hong Kong is teemed with rubbish bins of all sorts, totalling 42,000 in 2014 – meaning one for every 172 people and 10 times more than Seoul. Such abundance has drawn Louis Chung and Tom Hui, both in their early 20s, to keep a record of these bins across the city and share their trail of trash cans on Instagram.

Chung’s unusual interest in waste containers can be dated back to his childhood walks, where he always noticed a purple rubbish bin on his way home from school every day. He recalls, “I saw that bin as my childhood companion.” Growing up, he has taken pictures of every rubbish bin he spotted, before partnering with his design school classmate Hui to develop their final year project based on the subject. His enthusiasm has grown even greater after completing the project and now his current goal is to publish a photo album exclusively of local waste containers.

https://hk.appledaily.com/feature/20210307/F6ZO3PVDQ5CL5GN4A47X5V2QEA/

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#AnDyWuMUSICLAND Mashup 2016 “We Were Young” (Best 90 Pop Songs of 2016)
Music & Video Mashed by AnDy Wu

Lyrics Video (w/ Song tags): https://youtu.be/Tq8vnRkxoOQ
Lyrics: http://bit.ly/2fH7uI1

90 Songs playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLXP2d2aQquxYnRjfIdvTXAj7gSuBP_YjY
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Remember when I got my first toy, played with it & cherished it for a long time; walking out with my friends, chasing each other under the sunshine; holding hands, kissing my love for the first time.

Sometimes I wished I could freeze these moments. But life keeps going on and on, we all get old, and we can’t hold on to everything. Every time we lose something or somebody we love is a lesson to help us see the meaning of life. Years after, the pain would fade away. By then, all we have left would be some bright gleaming glossy pearls in our hearts. Not only have we grown old, but also grown up. Reminiscence would be the best & only way to take ourselves back to those good old days. In the end, we let go, and live better right here, right now.

"True love brought salvation back into me. With every tear came redemption, my torture became my remedy. — Beyoncé, Lemonade (Film)"

We were young, but we ain’t ever getting older.

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In memoriam at the end of the video -- Prince (1958-2016), David Bowie (1957-2016), Christina Grimmie (1994-2016)
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