I want to “x” out doubting my self worth.What about you?
Social media has always been my main platform to showcase my work and prowess, and I take in pride in the work I do. I really do, each look is something I think about for days and about its composition, the execution and color combo.
Recently I had to snap out of a moment where I found myself being sucked into this void of “Why? How am I losing followers? From 3k+ plus to only 100 likes? Is my work not good enough? Do people hate it?”, and it made me sink myself in a shocking realisation. I sat there and realised that I lost myself in the world of online narcissism and I felt the need to constantly have reassurance that my followers was receiving the work that I wanted to deliver to them. I even started asking people on instastories whether they are seeing my content. I tried changing the way i do my captions, changing my post times, EVERYTHING! I even paid to check to see whether I got shadow ban, which I found out I did. But by then, I went down this hole of hatred towards my work.
That was when I knew that I needed to re-evaluate where I put my self worth. I knew that my train of thoughts was headed into this never ending toxic cycle of basing my self value in a platform that’s supposed to boost me in my career and push me forward in my life. I decided last week to turn off my business profile. And just reflect.
I know that now, it happens to the best of us. And it’s important to be self aware of where your thoughts and feelings are headed to, to catch yourself when you know you’re harming yourself unnecessarily over something that doesn’t define who you are. I am lucky to be able to snap out.
Social media is an incredible tool for us as creators, as people. But it’s important to know when to balance when it’s good and when it’s effecting you badly.@mmi_social told me that they wanted to shed light on anxiety and insignificance. Join #mmimentalhealth 2.0:Cuts+Bruises Event on the 23rd February 2019 at Taylor’s University Lakeside campus to find out how you can help individuals fight mental health issues. More details on bit.ly/MMImentalhealth
#XoutMentalHealth #eliminatethestigma
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